If I asked you to fix me , will you try and fix me ?
will you hold me and never let go ?
I’m afraid because even breathing is hard without you
next to you breathing is easy
next to you smiling is normal
next to you laughing is usual
away from you fear comes
away from you hate creeps in
away from you crying is a friend of mine
I never needed someone this bad
I need you to hold me , love me , and never let me go

A girl that never had a taste of true happiness
she cries herself to sleep every day thinking the life is not fair  
she hides under the cover not leaving her room
  she harms herself think that nobody cares.

she looked up and found a shining star , she cried out-loud and prayed
that someone will see through her scars.

days went by , her mummy saw the scares her mummy cried thinking it was her fault
the girl looked at her mum and hugged her tight
in her heart she know that her prayers were heard
she vowed to her family that she will not harm herself
she struggled to find reasons why not to , since it's the only way she can survive.

months went by and the girl did not harm , but the pain is stronger than ever
she screams and cries then she wipes away her tears and acts as if she is fine
she got new friends and she smiles , her family thinks she is fine
she began to believe her lies.

A year goes by and her past starts to hunt her back
she is scared ,  she tries and not to break again
so she locked herself in a room thinking she can hide
she is lost again even worse she is terrified
she doesn't want to go back to the same spot
she walks around smiling but people curse her
she tries and acts as if it doesn't hurt her ,but words do cut her
she can't tell anyone because they are happy and she feels that
she doesn't have the right to say a word
she started laughing and joking just to hide the fact that her heart is ripped apart
finally she broke down and she broke the vow she went back to her old ways
and harmed herself , her wounds are bigger now she is lost
but only this time who will save her ?

have you ever wondered
what is love ?
where is love ?
how to love ?
well ...

love is two souls in one
love is two hearts in one
love is two people in one
love doesn't know hate
love doesn't know color

love is seeing the world through your lover
love is carrying someone through the pain
love is feeling the heart beats

love is pain
love is hard
love is good
love is nice

love doesn't need words
love is four letters
love is knowing each other
love is you and me
love is everywhere
love is a family
love is a friend

and if love was a present I'll buy it for you
if love was a word I'll say it to you
if love was far I'll reach it for you
if love was fast I'll run it for you
if love was slow I'll walk if for you
if love was a story I'll be it for you

some people search the world for love but i found it in you
so am i your lover ?

I can sense your foot steps on my door
I hear your whispers like your sitting next to me

I try and confince myself that your gone
but this heart doesn't believe the truth

I laugh and wish your here to laugh with me
I cry and wish your here where you can hold me

I miss your touch , your hug , your kiss
people tell me that your not gone

then where are you ? are you hiding ?
okay i'm sorry I don't want to play hide and seek any more

I want you now , I need you now
more and more every passing day

I'm trying to act like I don't like you
like I don't care
but I like and care with all my heart

I try and hide it
but no matter how much I try
my eyes expose my heart

and now that you know how I feel
now that you know my shame
please try to pretened like you don't know

I feel really small next to you
your perfect eyes , lips , smile ,hair
every single detail is perfection

even the sun would feel shy next to you
even the moon would beg you to be his
even the starts would talk about your beauty

then what am I suppose to do as a human
I can only sit and wish that your mine
maybe one day you will .

It's okay to cry now 
No one is watching


It hurts you I understand 
And that's why I'm trying



I tried my best to fix this

But you are just too hurt to get this



I hoped that you would tell me

So that we can get through this 



Maybe I'm caring too much

And that's why you're closing



I'm asking you to let your guards down

Because I wanna help you 



Don't get this wrong 

I'm just trying to get you



But it looks like you are not caring 

So I'll just stop sharing 



Thank you for all that you have done 

And thank you for all that you have fixed ..

I saw you at a corner and you caught me off guard
you smiled and eased the pain inside
I took a shot I took a chance , I couldn’t help it I just smiled
with you it felt right
when you’re close I can’t breath , I can’t find a word to speak
by the day goes past the darkness lasts
everyday we try to play it , acting like we’re not gonna pay it
everyone tried to send our love away but I believe we were meant to be
everyone tried to push you away but I will reach you again
cause in my heart I know you think of me
so no matter what you still have me

then this fear comes over me
you’re the truth I can’t let go of ,you’re the thing I can’t hold on to
just when it starts to feel so real , I hit reality and it takes it all

but in this moment all that matters is you and me..