Melaina

Melaina Jun 2013

im alive

I woke up same as yesterday
But today i am alive and breathing for the first time in a long time
I feel again.
I Can and will heal again
Now i can move on again.
I feel my finger tips tingle
My heart & my brain want to mingle
And i will , today i am alive
Ive stood still for too long
Held on to all that was wrong
Wound up with nothing
Today i feel, and i know its real
Nothing fabricated, my life is now appreciated.
I have learned ,i have conquered all of my demons
& My past ive been through hell and back
Now im here standing & im alive

Feeling this way yesterday i hope you enjoy (;

Melaina Jun 2013

ive thought about quiting

Just giving up,
I've thought about leaving,
and i've thought about us.
im thinking about my future,
trying to see how I will maneuver
I think about the money the fame
but you only get it if you play this game
I think about school and where I'll go from here
so much time so much potential.
and I think of an easy way out.
im thinking maybe I'll quit.

Melaina May 2013

a metaphor

An ocean
A breeze
Slightly out of reach
A easy smile
A clean sheet
Wait for me to speak
Deep blue seas
Broad mountian tops
I want to climb this peek
Lanky cat tails &
Old man socks.

I didn't think anyone would understand this but each line is describing something but its about the big picture .

Melaina May 2013

My Understanding

you lie ive heard it
I break but never broken for long
I feel it here in my chest
Im used to hearing the same old song
I've run, i made it away safe.
There is not much left.
Its just me and myself.
This is my understanding my agreement.
I keep going
I push harder, i go faster.
Ive learned life is a disaster .
Suffering
But this is understanding

Melaina May 2013

The days with trees

My spot in the woods
With the green with the trees
Swaying swing falling and feeling
The suns on bright, i'm here alone.
My spot in the woods
It fixes nothing it heals no wounds
Tumbling struggling
Calling out to the open air ,
the plants blooming my mind is booming
I'm screaming .
But i'm still here alone just reading
My spot in the woods
Softly sing with the breeze
Soon ill be leaving
Gravity pushes me back
With memories
In my spot in the woods

I wrote this a while ago its very scattered the day i wrote it i was still dealing with a lot , let me know if you understand it not for everyone but i know someone might be feeling the same. Not too experienced of a writer i just started a little bit ago i appreciate whatever help i can get developing my own style of writing

Melaina Apr 2013

Far from home

Far from home but close to childhood.
I found a medium in child's play.
Not to far, right down the block
But far enough a couple states over
Far from home but where am I from?
Across the ocean through the sea in Germany
Over the mountains and through Tennessee to Alabama Phenix city
Over that bridge and down the road into EC where no one goes
Down the street around the corner
My child hood home I remember
Not at all maybe a little a far from home.

Melaina Apr 2013

That feeling

like electricity entering the body
heat from the vent, money well spent
being payed up on rent
like winning a trip to Disney land
or laying on the beach in the sand
laundry right out the dryer
setting a candle on fire
calling out a liar
your favourite song on at the right moment
being ready for in the morning
hangovers after a good party
having someone to lean on
is almost like all of the above ,
like the silver blade giving you a hug.
that feeling you get when you cut

#fire #feeling #song #cut #try #electric