My life is on a waiting list
that I’ve created in my mind
to justify that I’m not ready to face the world

What you lack
is what you can live without

Parce que t'aimer
c'est-à-dire
aimer soi-même

Beacuse loving you
meant
loving myself

This body is yours
Take care of it
Nourish it
Listen to its signs

What doesn’t make sense now
Will find meaning later

Let us talk
Not to critique
But to express a sudden love
An unexpected friendship
And a connection that suprisingly blossomed

I was always fascinated with words
The way they could change you
And let you see other people
In ways you never thought were possible

I changed
they didn’t
this is what happened

we’re not the same anymore
what is essential for me is meaningless for them
you know how hard this is?

You cannot expect
Others to like you when
You’re broken

Accept the fact
that you moved
and nothing
is going to annoy you anymore

He walked
not knowing
that I observed him
from my car

That's how
everything
returned back
to its place
I have healed
myself from you
And that's how all human
existence has moved on

People entered my soul without notice
They visited me
and they lived in me
Their strenght was all I need
And I depended on them
And I let them change me
to be better of course
I never knew what I kept
inside of me
Until one day
I opened up
I said what I wanted to say
I acted naturally
I wasn't too shy
I let go of my insecurities
I let go of past judgments that were
always sticked to my thoughts

New beginnings are scary at first
but they are filled with new feelings
New excitments
They make you who you are
You become stronger
You feel better
But that doesn't mean
that there weren't lonely days and lonely nights
when all I ever did
was remember past memories
and look at old photos
It's not that easy to forget people
that you love
I'm not forgetting them
I'm just learning how to live without them

We need to thank the people
that gave us support this year
that understood our pain
The people that never left us
Their presence
Their voices
Their words
gave us hope
to never give up

There are things that you will never
be able to picture
nor even imagine happening to you
But you end up accepting them
As the only possible uncertainty in
your life

If I don't speak
Can you hear
my thoughts?

Talking while someone listens
is called healing

Return to you root
What caused your tension?
What created your anger?
Can you not get mad at yourself
For overreacting?

Don't make promises
Let the unexpected
Let the days lead you
take you
Don't make plans
Let life integrate you in
its own plan
Don't go around searching for
for a soul similiar to yours
Let the other person's
soul fly to you
As sweet  and tender
as the wind that blows
Don't be afraid
Take your chance
         your shot
Don't hope too much
or think too much
Let everything takes its place
Let everything have the time that it
needs to be accomplished
Don't be stressed, there is
always someone to encourage you

He only said
I wanna know you better
And that’s how it all started

The one going through a break-up
The people who stopped talking to someone
They used to care about
Do not let them in again
No matter how many times they said they are sorry
Stop giving them the permission
To try again
Don’t let them disrespect you
Move on
Move on
Stop thinking about them
Stop allowing them a space in your heart
And in your mind
Believe in yourself
You deserve better
You are more
Than this relationship
You can be disappointed
But still choose
To move on
You can compare it to a failure
But you can still move on
It can hurt
But you can still move on

You will never see
how much I’ve grown
on the inside

That’s the thing about lived realities
They are not expectations
Nor stereotypes about cultures
They are the opposite of common knowledge
How about we document our life and get rid of these misconceptions?

Whatever happens to having plans?
Making decisions so life wouldn’t be confusing, so we know where to go
We design our lives
So we feel more in control
But what if it doesn’t work out this way?
What if what we need is not meant for us
Maybe alternatives are better
We think too much of what we want to become
We spend a lifetime searching for what satisfies our soul

What will make us more important than others

We make plans
to feel more in control
of our lives

But maybe
not knowing,
being confused
and
having alternatives
Is simply better


We think too much of what we want to become
Instead of searching for what satisfies our soul

Second chances
Are only given
To the ones
That deserve it

Missing someone
Doesn’t always mean
You have to go back

When you move on
You’ll know why you relationship never worked out

What a mess
Going back to what
Makes you sad

Believe in yourself
In your magic
You have endless potential
You can fulfill dreams
No matter how many it takes
Time is never important

What if I lost
myself in the
midst of everything?

Hope keeps us alive
Like a breath of fresh air
On a hot summer night
Like a sudden feeling of belonging
Of knowing where you're going

I am not like the others
My skin is made of a
thousand dreams that needed more tourists
and my eyes are poetic places
My hands have caressed  
the pages of many old books
and my nose will always recognize the
scent of the people that I love
I have tasted the flavor of
new beginnings
But my ears were never able
to hear the sound of your voice
My feet have touched the
sand of your imagination
But my hair couldn't
bear the heavy winds
coming from your stormy mind
My arms couldn't
embrace your sweetness
But my teeth were made
to mash these dark thoughts
of yours and transform them into tiny ones

Normalize the feeling
Of giving up
And not having
Enough to hope

Ce qui manque
dans nos relations amoureuses
est la spontanéité

You grow up
when you don't get
sad when something
is bothering you
You just accept it
You even smile
Like there's a voice inside you
more powerful than
the other
Whatever happens
Think of it
as a good thing
And you'll always
feel comfortable
Trust me

Overthinking
Will
Destroy
Your
beautiful
Soul

You cannot love someone else
Unless you start to love yourself

You will never be able to love someone
If you don’t love yourself

There's a difference
between getting used to someone
liking them
and loving them

some people surround us
with all the negativity in the world
and then they ask us
why did we leave

We are always afraid
Of people leaving us
Without notice

Feeling empty
Is a harsh feeling
As if nothing makes sense
As if suddenly everything stops for a while
We need to have faith
In ourselves
And accept our mood swings
Our moments of despair
We shouldn’t take decisions
We should simply let go
And let everything fits into its own way

Sometimes I am unable to see it
see how lucky I am
to breathe
to move
to have a job
Is it okay if things stopped making sense ?

Sometimes
we fail
to express
a love
so deep
so strong

If only wars destroyed
buildings and walls
not souls
Men and woman continue their life
with half a heart
with half of their feelings
Wars ****
childhood
innocence
ignorance
We lie on the floor
not knowing if tomorrow
we will have another chance to continue dreaming
of better days
and some security
for our family and friends

Open the dictionary and you’ll find its meaning
open your windows and remember sad things
and you’ll feel it
but do you know how we experience it?
We live with our emotions
every second of the day
Even if sometimes we suppress them
we make them disappear out of fear
of being judged as weak
Our society refuses our emotions
and want us to get rid of it
should we?
Should we erase what makes us human
what differentiate us from others
what gives life meaning
Should we listen to them
every time they ask us not to feel?

We will always feel attached
To people we don’t know

There was something peaceful in his gaze
Like somehow he has figured out his whole life
And I didn't want to disrupt this
For he seemed happy

We will always keep a place
for people who refused to love us

I wanted
people
to
accept me
as
I
am

But that
was
too
much
to
ask

I am aware of the fact
That change let us lose parts of ourselves

I will never be your morning coffee that you take everyday
I will never be the same ride that you take everyday to go to work
I will never be the same jacket that you wear when it’s finally autumn
I will never be the same cover that you have on you phone for years
I will never resemble your favourite quotes from a book
I will never be the same meal that you order everytime you go to Mcdonalds
I will never be the same shirt that you wear to watch concerts
I will never let you think that i know you better than you know yourself
I will never fully understand you
I will never say things that i don’t mean

On the contrary
I will tell you everything
But what if you hated someone that is too different from the others
What if you loved the same stuff that people do when they’re in love
What if we became an expectation
But that’s the thing you adored to act like the others
You never felt like you should think differently
and maybe now things are beginning to find their way
Maybe our road is meeting
But trust me there are things that we will always argue about
We don’t like the same things
and we don’t expect the same thing from life
I’m different I know I am

We think our kids will be better than us
They will have everything they need and even more
But that doesn’t make them great
Your child is not the one who is gonna realize your lost dream
He isn’t so special
He is just like you with the same thoughts and fears of your childhood and your teenage years

So I don’t think we are disappointing them
when we aren’t able to do what they think we are capable
Nonetheless I hope I could satisfy them
Make myself proud and make them proud
For they have given me the chance to grow mentally and spiritually
And I am forever grateful for that

Wait for someone
who makes your presence
as holly as visiting
an old church
as sacred as an empty  
museum

The fourth of August
Our lives have changed since then
As Lebanese
as human beings
Our perspective
How we see ourselves
Our priorities
Our family
Our friends
It became a hyperreal country
Something that has control
over us
that drag us down
make us suffer
It is a tragedy
that keeps returning
It is a cycle
that our grandparents passed through
Our parents
And now us
But if we leave?
What are we considered?
You are not giving up if you escape
You still care
You still love
But that isn’t enough
Your trust is broken
You’ve been betrayed
How do you maintain a relationship with a country
that uses violence in all of its types and
then convinces you that it loves you, it needs you
that will change someday?
Your soul needs comfort
Your body needs affection
Your mind needs safety
You need to see a future
where you can live, breathe, fulfill dreams
Not just survive!

What is life without love?
Meaningless
What is life without hope?
Insignificant
What is life without respect?
Irrational
What is life without feelings?
Useless

To leave a certain space
with someone you used to admire
is called a distant childhood love

Believe that good things
are on their way
They will happen
They will be part of your life
But do not chase them
For they come to you
like little breezes of air
Unable to be seen
But felt deeply and strongly
within your soul