We need to take care of ourselves
not matter how hard it is seems
It doesn't have to be majestic
It should get ugly
Because starting something new
isn't easy, it is terrifying
But trust me when you get there
it's worth it
It's a lot of work
But think of how much you need it
How much it is important to your soul,
to your body, to your confidence
You're not alone in this
Everything takes time
Look around you
Even nature takes time to grow
Do not expect progress to
happen suddenly
You have to keep going
no matter the time
For what counts is our
experiences , how much we have
felt, even suffered to accomplish ourselves

L'instabilité
Le manque de peur
Ces sentiments inexplicables
Tout ce qui est relié à l'incertitude
Savoir ce qu'on veut dans la vie
C'est ce qui a changé en moi
Ces derniers mois

Heal me
without judgement
Help me
without my notice
For whenever we put labels on necessities
they lose their meaning and their credibility

We sometimes need people
to save us from all the misery
that we have created in our own heads

There's a difference
between getting used to someone
liking them
and loving them

The
One
That
Loves
You
Will
Free
You

Some things in ourselves are really hard to change
My main concern in life was
not being enough
for something
for my courses
I was self-doubting
I was really afraid
How could I start again after all the fun months I have spent?
How can I keep a routine?
How can I get back to study and
focus on myself?
How can I spend more hours in the library
and become more confident?
Waw how much these questions are important
And how much they involve
Every student in the world

And I answered them with other questions
Why do I need to be the best to succeed?
Shouldn’t learning be a fun thing?
Where it is all about accepting yourself
And expanding your knowledge
Why do I always feel the need to be more than I am?
Why do I have to become better?
Who said that the version of myself right now isn’t enough?
Why do I compare myself to others, to phones , to machines?
Why do we do this to ourselves setting up goals
Instead of waiting and seeing what life will offer us
Why can’t we trust that good things will happen
They can take time some time
And that’s okay
We should be patient with our fragile souls
Observe this world and see its hidden beauty

I need books to make me feel better
I need to read about a writer’s boring life
Accept life as absurd, boring and alienating as it is
Accept that everyone has a dark side
Involve emotions and feelings in everything I do or say
Let go instead of holding on