Sitting in my room
staring at the walls
trying to forget the argument
trying to forget it all
Swimming in a river
staring at the fish
trying not to cry
as I make a secret wish
Lying on my bed
staring at the clock
trying not to fall asleep
as I dream of a river dock
Listening to music
staring at the ceiling
trying not to look down
at my arm that are bleeding
Stanidng at the window
erasing you from my phone
trying to convince myself
I won't be alone
Wiping away the tears
as i look at pictures of you
I wish you would come back
because I'm still in love with you.

Little girl, little girl please don't cry
it's not your fault that you want to die
I know that he's mean to you, he yells all the time
he does it so much that his words seem to rhyme
Little girl, little girl please don't hide
it's not your fault you want to commit suicide
I know that they hurt all the bruises he leaves
he hits you so much when he tells you he loves you, you can't believe
Little girl, little girl please don't run
it can't rain forever, there really is a sun
I know that it's cold when he forces you to his room
when you refuse to go he hits you with a broom
Little girl, little girl please don't be afraid
Jesus will help you and take you away someday
I know that your weak so much you can't speak
one day you will be happy and walking on your feet
Little girl, little girl please don't cry
it's not your fault your not ready to say goodbye
I know that he scares you when he throws you on the floor
Jesus is taking you home now
you won't have to suffer anymore.

I feel myself falling
with everything I do
you broke my heart once again
I can't stand the pain you put me through
I feel myself losing it
it's even happening in my dreams
with each hour that passes I fall even further
Please tell me what this means?
I can't take the pressure I'm under
why is this happening to me?
I wish I could run away and never come back
why can't people just let me be?
you said you would never hurt me
you said that you needed me too
now that I'm sinking I'm drowning alone
and no one can save me but you
I'm ready to just give up on everything
I'm sick of crying myself to sleep at night
I stand in the shower numb as ice
deciding if I should continue this fight
the way I feel no one can understand
so I suffer here in silence
I smile as if everything is okay
but really inside I'm dying
I wish I could walk and never stop
I wish these scars would fade away
I wish this battle that I have with myself
didn't take up so much of my day
I wish I was a different person
I wouldn't be putting up with this ****
I wish I could get rid of this sadness
so I no longer have to deal with it.

Once upon a time
there was a girl who couldn't feel
when unexpected things happened
she acted like they weren't real
She was very hard to read
I know because I've tried
she thought she was ugly
she thought everyone lied
Everyday she cut
she didn't want to live
she thought nobody loved her
so she's never forgive
She was always alone
she smoked a cigarette per hour
she took care of herself though
she smelled as sweet as a flower
Her birthday came and went
nobody knew
her heart was broken
she didn't know what to do
So once upon a time
there was a girl who couldn't feel
she killed herself when the unexpected happened
she found her way to deal.

They said I couldn't sing
but I have a cd
they said I was too young
yet I have adults at my knees
they said he was just a crush
but now he's my husband
they said I was dumb
yet I got into college two years before them
they said I talk to much
now I have my own talk show
they said I acted immature
yet I pay my own bills now
they said I was a loser
yet I win all of the skateboard games
they said I was ugly
yet my my clothing stores have different names
they told me to die
but I'm still living
they say I waste time
but my friends can't get enough of me
they said I couldn't dream
but now look at me
every magazine they look at
my face is all that they see.

Today was a hard day
everyday is a hard day
sometimes it's hard to concentrate
in every single way
Today was not fun
everyday isn't fun
Mom screamed at me today
I swear she burst a lung
Today I was tired
everyday I'm tired
my boyfriend is worried about me
I swear he thinks I'm wired
Today was very cold
I can't stand it when it's cold
when I'm cold I feel old
Today I cut myself
I got to live a little while today
but today was still a hard day.

She used to be sweet
now she's a *****
she used to sleep at night
now she's a snitch
she used to be young
now she tries to be old
she used to behave
now she doesn't do what she's told
she used to be nice
now she's mean
she used to be sloppy
now she's clean
she used to want to live
now she's suicidal
she used to love herself
now she lovesher idol
she used to be fun
now she's disturbing
she used to be creative
now she's unnerving
she used to be drama free
now she's drama filled
she used to be loved
now she should be killed
she used to be honest
now all she does is lie
she wants people to feel sorry for her
every time she cries
she can cry all she wants
she won't get her way
she needs to stop being a *****
before she loses her life today.