When the guy your in love with doesn't love you
it's almost impossible to breathe
a part of you just falls apart
your no longer in one piece
To see him talk to a beautiful girl
just stings in one place
then he asks you what you think of her
and you have to lie to his face
"She's incredible, she's amazing
you should totally ask her out"
when really you want to kiss his lips
and tell him you love him out loud
but you stop yourself and you smile
and support him instead
Yet inside your hurting
and you got so many thoughts racing through your head
Everynight before you go to sleep
you ask God to help you feel better
but something inside tells you to hang on
as you put your feelings toward letters
their addressed to him of course
but he doesn't know that
you keep them in a box hidden
and you don't look back
Broken hearts are supposed to heal
but this time it's different
your heart isn't healing
it's remaining broken
so you cry until sleep falls over you
and you dream hopeless dreams
"maybe things will change" you think
however impossible that may seem.

I think it's stupid
when other's cry for attention
I think it's stupid
when others think they can stop you from reaching your dreams
I think it's stupid
when you pretend to be something your not
I think it's stupid
to smile when you really want to cry
I think it's stupid
to let fear control your life
I think it's stupid to give up on love
because your heart is constantly getting broken
I think it's stupid to spend $1,000 on a pair of shoes
I think it's stupid
to dress like a **** just to impress a guy
I think it's stupid
to be friends with someone who treats you like ****
I think it's stupid
to live a misreable life
I think giving up is stupid
I think holding onto false hope is stupid
being a ***** to everyone you know to protect yourself from ever being hurt
I don't think that's smart
I think that's extremely stupid.

It's been ten days since you left
it hurt so bad to see you go
I wish you were still here with me
I wish you never had to go
I don't know where to start from here
right now I feel so lost
your probably happy with your new life
and for that I wish you the best
I can't seem to be here in this house
not with all the memories of you
maybe I should move to another place
and create something new
I wonder how your doing
how is life without me
I'm sure it's wonderful
I wonder if a part of you misses me
I'll never know why we went seperate ways
I'll always remember that this was your choice
you had responsibilities yiou had to deal with
that's what you said the last time I heard your voice
This is really killing me though
I'm not ready to move on
I lost a part of myself
the moment I realized you were gone.

I feel like I'm losing air
I can't seem to breathe
no matter how many times I try to relax
I still trip over my feet
I feel like I'm going in circles
I hear my heart beating like crazy
I'm thinking of all the reasons as to why I feel this way
but I can't remember anything
Why can't I catch my breath?
Why can't I speak?
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why am I getting weak?
Somebody tell me what is happening
why doesn't anyone care?
this unexplainable feeling goes away
once I wake up from this horrible nightmare.

God you can beat me to death
just don't take him away
you can make me bald, make my eyes black
just please let him stay
You can take away my breathing
you can take away my life
you can take anything you want
just as long as he survives
God take away my hopes
take away my faith
take away my dreams
just as long as he is okay
Let me live in misery
let me live in pain
let me bleed from my ears
just as long as he is okay
Take away my friends
take away my home
throw me in a ditch
just as long as he is not alone
God skin me alive
let me bleed for hours
you can burn me at the stake
as long as he has what he needs
God if I could give up my life
just so he could live
then please **** me
so my life could be his
Hang me from a wall
and shoot me with a gun
rip apart my limbs
if that's what it takes to see his son
Run me over with a car
if it will grant him happiness
if the death of me means life for him
then ****** God just do it
**** me
take it all
you can have every part of me
just as long as he stays alive
and has another day of breathing
If you take him God
you will have to take me too
I can't live without him
and I don't ever want to.

Right now I don't feel so good
everything is out of place
it's hard to think clearly about anything
when tears keep falling down my face
My heart is shattered
there are pieces of me everywhere
I look like **** with these cuts on my wrists
but lately I don't really care
I'm losing the only person
who is worth feeling anything for
I know I will never see him again
once he walks out my front door
To live without him
it just scares me to death
I have the urge to throw up
which makes it impossible to rest
I don't know what's going to happen
I don't know what to do
all i know is I can't do this alone
I can't live my life without you
I'm just so scared
that's what I know for sure
right now I'm fearing our goodbye
that will happen once you walk our my front door.

I don't know what to think
I don't know what to say
I don't know how to feel
I'm upset that you went away.
You died without any warning
I didn't even get to say goodbye
I feel so much guilt over the fight we had
now all I do is cry
I was supposed to go first
my ashes belong around your neck
here I sit holding your ashes
and I just want you back.
All the memories I have of you
I can't make disappear
I walk the streets we used to run
and I wish on the stars that you were still here.
What do I do know?
Where do I go from here?
You were my source of confidence
without you all I have is fear.
How do I live without you?
How do I sleep without the beating of your heart?
How do I get over your death
when I can't stop falling apart?