This Stage is Called Awakening

May 2017

Wandering Soul

Don't leave her, even when she gets moody.
Because she's too proud to admit how much
she needs you, how much your words mean
to her. Especially at 3am behind closed doors.

Choose to stay, even when she tells you to go.
Because she's afraid of opening up to people,
scared of trusting only to end up being used.
Stay. Because she's terrified of being alone.

And when you tell her you love her, mean it.
Because you have the power to shatter her,
to break her into a million fragile pieces.
So don't lie to her. Ever.

This Stage is Called Awakening May 2017

Russian dolls

The first doll is really big
She looks very strong
And even intimidating
She seems so tough and powerful
Beneath this doll theres a sweet little girl
Who loves to show her affection for others
She loves pretty and sweet things
Shes a good christian girl
Always does whats right
And beneath that doll is a screaming lunatic
And insane person who cant be controlled
A mad person with a thurst for blood and vengeance
One who is obviously weighed down by the past
And beneath them all
The tiniest of dolls
Is a sad little girl
Not more than five years old
Shes crying, she never stops crying
Because the only doll in front of her that she can see
Is the screaming lunatic
And the only emotion this little girl knows is fear.

An interesting way i would describe myself, i couldn't sleep last night and thought of this. I think something like it on a movie or something

This Stage is Called Awakening May 2017

Im fine

Im dying inside
My life is a mess
Failing at everything
Im an idiot
Nothing matters anymore
End my life, please

You dont know how someone really feels, dont assume peoples feelings for them.

This Stage is Called Awakening May 2017

Untitled

Money was speny
Time wasted
Early to work i went
No breakfast tasted

And yet my reward?
Sitting here useless
Im not moving toward
Anything but a big mess

I wrote this during an act prep class because i was so bored and the teacher was just aaying things i already knew XD

Apr 2017

hfallahpour

You

I want to see you every day
You are great and so is what you say
Of the sun of love, you're a dazzling ray
this is what I'd like to say
I want to spend my time with you every day
Because you are perfect in every way
Your smile makes me glad
without you near I feel sad
You mean so much to me
I want you to feel what's in my heart
I miss you my sweetheart
always be here and never apart

This Stage is Called Awakening Apr 2017

I should sleep

I want to write
I feel like i need too
I just dont feel right
I want to talk to you

But i cant
I just dont have the words
I have to many emotions
Im falling
I just hope im falling forwards

I need a release
But i cant move
I cant even breathe
But im stuck as well

Its midnight
I should go to bed
But i cant just yet
I dont think i could sleep

Im so tired right now
I want to sleep
But its too much
I just cant do anything

Everything is too much
Im just overwhelmed
And the worst part is
Im alone.

Everything ***** right now and i cant sleep and ik if i dont tomorrow is going to be so awful, or more awful than usual.
#sleep #overwhelmed #emotions #depressed