loving you is like staring into the depths of the ocean
seemingly never-ending

loving you is like dancing in a rain storm
exhilarating and comforting all all at once

loving you is like being surrounded by forest
vast, calming, and serene

I love loving you

foothills we’ve walked
and mountains we’ve climbed
over fire and hot coals
and through water and freezing ice
we made it to where we are
in a little happy place

ive come to love the rain
and come to love the shine
all weather with you
is weather that makes me smile
so no matter if its pouring
or blazing down hot sun
any weather i live through with you
is still filled with so much love

good new things
bad has ended
tears linger in my eyes

not so sure
how i ended up here
but its a necessary destination

i felt stuck
now im free
but i forgot how to do it by myself

want to go back
but i know its wrong
why is this so complicated

dont even know how to put into words
how much i hate feeling

when my heart begins to tender
i succumb to deep bitterness

i hate sharing my feelings
i hate having my feelings

i hate having them for someone
i hate you on my mind

forget that i wasted 17 months
sitting alone in my bed is painful enough
hate myself for waiting around for you
even though i knew you werent there
you couldnt even put one foot through the door

but here i was
not even just one foot through the door
but i already entered the house
somehow ready to throw away my own home
for a ****** one with you

lost myself for a while in there
and there are still bits and pieces lying around
tucked away in little corners
waiting for me to find them
so i can leave that shoddy house whole again

trying to put my foot back out that door
but youre pulling me back inside
and i cant even go breathe fresh air anymore
all cramped up in this shack together
but you tell me its ok

but you see, its not okay
and i wont be locked here much longer
when i find the moment where i feel strong
im bolting out the front door
and i am NEVER looking back