they say
cash rules everything around me
then why do i still feel so ******* empty
still haven't found the one though im met with plenty
priorities neurotic, thinking love gives me clarity
this love could be iconic, but it manifest insanity
i always fought the fact you could never qualify
i thought the grass was greener on the other side
its asinine for me to keep up with this lie
trying to love you feels like cyanide
merging with you should've never felt this right

the "i" remains consistent
regardless of what happened
"i" stay the same
the memories alter present day
but it's always "i" that i return too
the knowledge attained throughout time
causes more chaos than tranquility

she's exalted by those who seek validation
lost in a world in fear of transformations
enduring a cycle of lust in translation
she needs a deeper tonic for stimulation

This ain't no love track
Many restless nights of the love we lack
You left me so astray
if I had control, things would be a different way
I'm too young to be this wounded, my heart I feel like you looted
I don't like teaching lessons, you're ungrateful for all your blessings
Sad girl interlude, it's sad for you to assume
All the things you accused me of, hate is what we produce
No time to compromise, while you got me losing my mind
I am in my prime, I am in the deep end
You pushed me past  my limit
Not sorry for being selfish, you didn't value me when I was selfless
Our love got me on a high, my spirit is feeling very low inside
Your love is something I had to buy
In denial of what we are, so below as above
Clouded judgement from the drugs
Not the first time I fallen cause of love
Not the first time I fallen cause of love
This is how it goes, when you don't fall for the one
Wasted potential and fabricated fun
All these contradictions, provoking too much friction
Causing us to be distant
What was all this for
I'm tired of all this resistance
I thought you wanted me more