This anger grows
It's weight unknown
Growing mountain peaks
To Breach clouds turned cold.

I carry it on my back,
Beg my legs to hold.
Brace for another step,
Fear the cobbled stone.

Yet I can't surmise,
How such a mountain rise
Grew from the tip a pick
Inflicted by daily sky

So In my strife
I place a pebble by
To trace my steps
Once mountains lie.

I'll greet the sky,
As a passer by.

I could not anticipate the effects you had on me.
Illusions of self confidence, a
Falsehood of self esteem

You Had me going slowly down the road of no return.
Like sugar mixed with heat,
It still turns black when it is burnt.

We used to spend are nights chasing story's we could tell,
But stories turn to memory's of
Those we left unwell.

Even now I'm with you I think back on how we used to be.
The Infatuation's gone,
After years I need reprieve.

Left me as a shell,
Empty bottle of a man.
Can never hold another,
Can't stop thease shaking hands.

The tap is finally dry.
The doors locked, and closed.
Happy hours paced,
The bartenders gone home.

We are all that's left,
It's only you and me.
Just Another lonely man,
Whos first love, was 2 shots of misery.

Am I as I once was?

A simple boy who chased true love.

Greeting all who passed me by, with a courteous smile or hello, goodbye.

I think of those who have come my way, the ones for a time who chose to stay.

I'm reminded how my heart would beat, then echo its silence, when they flee. 
A lonely melody in the space between

I now wonder who I would have been, if that first beat I did not give.

Would I still be a simple man,
Or remain this shell for a hollow sound?

I've been laying awake for days
Think I'm fusing to this bed
I really should get up
But can't seem to lift my head
My thoughts are all thats moving
Paralyzed me to the core
Greeting all this apathy
Like family at the door
I used to give a ****
But I can't give a **** no more
Told me you were leaving
So I pushed you to the door

Tried to pop a bottle, Took some pills, Had a hit
No matter what I try
Since you left, I dont feel ****
i went to meet new people
Thought id try to reconnect
But every encounter that I had
Only reminded me of regrets

Bad and good may not exist
but morals still reflect
I've broken all of mine
What else do I have left
Im a walking, talking demon
Breathing fire with my words
Leaving scorch marks in my path
Watching all my bridges burn

So just Leave me to my prison
All this lack luster I have earned
I'll lay lonely in this bed
An just let the mattress burn
I won't try to get up
Wont wish away the heat
Im just a pheonix born in fire
Leaving ashes in thease sheets
But before I light that match
To ignite that side of me
I will lay here in the dark
Just to try an get some sleep

I am pretty good at taking things apart and putting them back together,
except when it comes to my own heart,
I seem to have Miss placed the pieces.

If you see
I'm far away,

With a mind lost
In time and space,

be aware
i set this pace,

Just give me space
I just need some space.

Please don't say to me,

"it's OK, there's plenty of fish in the sea"
cause i cant deflect what she meant to me
if we are fish then shes a rare breed.

So let me be
Please let me be

To the past memories that form a heart that's broken.

The one's reflecting on everything she used to be.

Sincerely good bye

and

Thank you for the cracks.