Do you ever felt nothing towards someone? Even when you knew that person for a long time but somehow it doesn't feel the same. That's how i feel about you although I do think about it sometimes. I think about how your eyes creases but it's funny because I don't know anything about you. I wish had more time with you because to me you are like a life to a party even when you're barely there in the dim light.
for the past couple of days i was so sad and decided to post whatever this is. i even went out to eat something late at night which is unlike me. i feel like im an explosion waiting to burst in a second and just die happy. being alive is so tiresome and scary. falling in love is even worse that makes me wonder about you all the time. it makes me a different person that i absolute despise every time.