It starts with a simple hello
Until you didn’t respond anymore
Why do you have to make me believe in you?
A warmth feeling turns to cold winter.

I wonder to myself what was wrong
The only I came up with is myself
Everything about me is wrong
It hurts as if you told me.

I try so hard to live this fantasy of mine
But whenever reality wakes me up
Telling me that you don’t want me
Until I stopped talking to you anymore.

You are a lie that continues to hurt me
A lie that at the same time makes me smile
A ******* lie that I wanted to believe in
It’s time for me to finally leave everything behind.

Did you think that it was easy to leave you?
You know that you’re the only thing that makes me happy
No matter how many times I make you believe I was
You ended up believing a lie that you made up.

Several nights I didn’t get to sleep peacefully
As if you put a spell on me that holds me as a prisoner
Why? Do you have to give up on me?
You know that after everything I might just run after you.

Why did you finally close that **** door?
The door that leads to your precious heart
That once loved me, who believed I was the nice guy
Well you might as well wake up from this horrible dream.

I want to tell you how bad I missed you
Yet my words crumpled like a paper
I have to go though even if I want to stay
Because in the end it will ruin us.

I'm wrapped with baby blue blanket
beneath it there is underlying sadness
It seems like I rather stay in it for a day
or maybe a month or a year or a decade.

I can't escape from this chains called you
I don't even wanna remember your name
In the end this love of mine will **** me
I have to get away from myself.

I always thought that I needed you
Didn't think you would be the one who broke me
I must be an idiot for calling you for months
And you didn't even pick up the **** phone.

It was a mistake for me to call this love
I was sick and I needed you to be there
You left me with my broken pieces
Maybe I shouldn't blame you at all.

I look at myself in the mirror in front of me
I can see a girl who always lies to herself
I can see her bleed until she collapsed
Yet no one was willing to help.

I didn’t want myself to suffer from so much pain
Yet it was something that kept me alive until now
This emotions that dwells inside of me
Burst like a firework waiting to be seen.

No one noticed how sad I am
How much I wanted them to notice me
That the pain inside of me was overwhelming
I just wanted to give up the act.

I couldn’t let myself to be a failure
I couldn’t cry as much as I want
I can’t breathe even though I needed it
In the end they thought I was doing fine.