there is nowhere
to put these flowers
for a broken vase
that holds no water

Every night thoughts of you creep inside of my head. Arrows are thrown at my heart. Symphonies hum inside of my eardrums. These urges are uncontrollable. Craving the sound of your voice, drugs flow throughout my veins. Waiting for you, every comet is our love sending signals of what we could be. Your whispers are sweeter than sugar, every poem for you becomes a tooth decay. Extraordinary beautiful lightning flashes before our souls. Darkness tries to take over, we live this ****.

I have never really known my past. The frequencies are vague. The bundle slips out of my hands, and the whole world shatters. Thoughts crumble into dust. Now everything is vivid. Bold beyond statement.

What came over me? There was no reason to hurt you. I destroyed the best part of you and watched you weep under my control. This terrible feeling eats at me. I won't let them use me. I can't wait until I die. This life is ******. I'm not happy with this. It has to be you. God must must have planned this. All of this pain must be worth it.