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Dec 2015 · 183
Christopher.
Lottie Dec 2015
You're mouthing along to a song
That holds a memory for you,
And in this moment, I love you
More than I understand;
More than you comprehend.
Lottie Dec 2015
I spread my wings towards the sky;
My arms lift as the wind rips through me.
I am too high up, I am not high enough.
A gasp of the pre-storm sky sends me spiralling upwards,
But the higher I get, the more the skin peels away
from my bones like paper.
Dec 2015 · 744
Chamomile and Tobacco.
Lottie Dec 2015
I can't tell you that this life is fair,
I cannot give you all the answers
In this ridiculous and repulsive world,
But I can help you find the answers
That fit your universe, if you want.
Dec 2015 · 231
See?
Lottie Dec 2015
**** everything that moves and breathes and crawls under this sky,*
But pity those who don't understand what it is to live.
Dec 2015 · 580
Puns.
Lottie Dec 2015
At the root of my happiness,
Branching out from my soul
Is the thought that the people I love
Will never leaf me
And it stumps me
Because they are so beautiful
And so full of life
And they love *me.
Dec 2015 · 275
.
Lottie Dec 2015
.
I want to write
But out of spite
My mind has lost its words..
Dec 2015 · 253
Christopher.
Lottie Dec 2015
I feel the need to rant about this person, he is so beautiful.
Many people consider this word to mean something has no flaws, but Christopher has flaws. He is protective and has a god complex. He has moles everywhere and a curved spine and I have a feeling that he's never going to be anything other than ill. Beautiful.
He has this love for humanity that I admire. A desire to help everyone who has ever had anything wrong and it is amazing. I can barely keep myself calm enough to help three people, I cant touch people. people touch my skin and I want to scream, but it is so different when you do. You're safe. *You're beautiful.
Dec 2015 · 164
Christopher.
Lottie Dec 2015
I lust for the lighter, darker things
That only your lips can bring.
Dec 2015 · 808
.
Lottie Dec 2015
.
Peel away the skin;
reveal a crying girl within.
Dec 2015 · 217
Deep breaths.
Dec 2015 · 223
Promise.
Lottie Dec 2015
What is the mind
If not the thresh-hold
To another, more beautiful
Universe?
Nov 2015 · 166
Dying.
Lottie Nov 2015
Love is a rose,
With blood
Dripping from the thorns.
Nov 2015 · 213
Dbms
Lottie Nov 2015
I am bound and gagged
By my love for you but I
Wouldn't leave if I could.
Nov 2015 · 212
Tired
Lottie Nov 2015
I am sinking, under pressure normally,
But you touch my skin and everything,
Everything calms to the point that
I am either consumed by the thought
Of you or can think of nothing but sleep.
Nov 2015 · 250
Dying souls.
Lottie Nov 2015
I am digging my own grave with lies
I never told,
To spare hearts
That ended up bleeding,
Even though I cared
And even though we tried
To find a better tomorrow
We were looking for a ghost in limbo.
Nov 2015 · 224
So much for getting better.
Lottie Nov 2015
My head burns;
My heart yearns,
For someone to hold me
And tell me
That it's okay to cry.
the irony is that I'm only unstable for while you aren't around but I need your help when I'm unstable.
Nov 2015 · 230
Selfish.
Lottie Nov 2015
I am tired of putting so much care
Into the words I choose for you,
Because of you,
It just doesn't mean that much to you.
i'll keep doing it until i die though.
Nov 2015 · 308
Aggressively Passive.
Lottie Nov 2015
Because nothing hurts a person more
Than smiling at them
after they slap you in the face.
Nov 2015 · 229
we all Fall down.
Lottie Nov 2015
I am breathing leaves.
Autumn travels through my lungs,
Swirling, storming around my rib cage.
Everything is dying around me,
Within me and I can't make it

**Stop.
Nov 2015 · 333
Ohgod.
Lottie Nov 2015
I don't feel real.
Nov 2015 · 257
Christopher.
Lottie Nov 2015
an earth shattering epiphany,
it doesn't change anything,
for everything is already perfect.
there is a wind storm outside that
will rattle my shell tonight
but in this moment i am grinning
so hard my cheeks hurt because you
are so beautiful and i am so shockingly
glad that i get to call you mine.
Nov 2015 · 174
One of those moods.
Lottie Nov 2015
Where do I fit into life again?
Nov 2015 · 248
Circus stripes.
Lottie Nov 2015
Your eyes are a circus mirror,
I see myself warped:
Unreal, too beautiful,
Too radiant.
That's not my me,
She's yours.
Nov 2015 · 370
No more.
Lottie Nov 2015
I would very much not like to breathe air,
That doesn't carry the scent of your skin.
Nov 2015 · 2.7k
Pray For Paris.
Lottie Nov 2015
This ****** world just got bloodier,
The streets of the romance city are painted red.
Islamic state, you owned up and sound
So pleased with yourself.
How dare you.
In the name of Allah, the all loving,
You just killed people,
You did it.
Allah, who may well be benevolent,
Has nothing to do
With the blood on your hands.
This world disgusts me.
Nov 2015 · 262
Storm.
Lottie Nov 2015
Crashing down on the shores of not enough sleep,
Being carried away by the promise of another chance
To lay my head down, to let my mind calm
But it's only ever the same conclusion;
Insomnia is wrecking my ship.
Nov 2015 · 292
Sinking.
Lottie Nov 2015
Floating just below the surface,
My hair splayed out around me
In the bath, or the sea, or space.
I am weightless,
Timeless,
Ageless,

*Powerless.
Nov 2015 · 209
Scarlet.
Lottie Nov 2015
The sun is setting and falling and crumbling,
For you.
But you are a part of the sky,
You may fall, on this night,
Your colours will wither
And we will lose a part of you
But in the morning you will become new,
The light I find in you will rise.
We will have you in full colour,
As vibrant as the sun streaked sky,
And it will be okay.
Some day.
Scarlet, I wish I could make all the pain go away but I'm too far away and you're too strong to need my kind of help, so I will write to you, for you and for a moment I hope it helps.
Nov 2015 · 303
Cliff-hanger.
Lottie Nov 2015
My emotional state has taken a swan-dive
Off the edge of happy
But oh
What will happen next?
Nov 2015 · 190
Epiphany.
Lottie Nov 2015
The most romantically sought after girl
And the most socially admired boy
Chose to be my best friend and boyfriend
And Jesus Christ, they chose me
Woah.
Nov 2015 · 179
°
Lottie Nov 2015
°
I've held onto the fact that I love you
For five years
I'm not going to stop any time soon
Nov 2015 · 171
Old friend.
Lottie Nov 2015
Was there anything that was real?
Or was it just your
Synthetic soul
And plastic personality.
Nov 2015 · 207
°
Lottie Nov 2015
°
I feel like I tried to swallow the word wrong,
But it got stuck in my throat.
Lottie Nov 2015
So you've been alive for seventeen years,
And I'm really very glad about this fact.
Stick around, little idiot.
Keep smiling, keep laughing.
Nov 2015 · 284
Paranoi-ugh
Lottie Nov 2015
I get scared so avoid all food,
But then I worry about dying young,
So then I over eat, eat, eat
And worry some more
Repeat.
Nov 2015 · 178
Stop.
Lottie Nov 2015
I will stop thinking this way.
I have not disappointed anyone.*
I just couldn't keep everyone safe.
i hate myself.
Nov 2015 · 197
Anxiety.
Lottie Nov 2015
I feel like there's a coil of wire
Winding around my waist
Clenching, clenching, clawing
At the skin.

I don't know how much longer
I can take of this. I am so
Scared, I don't know
What to do.
Nov 2015 · 283
As if I don't already know.
Lottie Nov 2015
There is not a person
On this night
Sober or drunk
Coherent or spack
Who didn't tell me
That you are perfect
And that I should hold
Onto you forever.
*It's kinda my plan.
Oct 2015 · 242
Shivering.
Lottie Oct 2015
Am I cold,
Or scared?
Oct 2015 · 175
Write.
Lottie Oct 2015
To be loved,

Now that's poetry.
Oct 2015 · 153
Landing funny.
Lottie Oct 2015
When you're coming down from a high,
Everything was fine, fine, completely fine.
But you hit the ground,
And its harder than it should be to get up again.
Oct 2015 · 147
Christopher.
Lottie Oct 2015
You are everything to me.
Oct 2015 · 201
"What's wrong?" "Life."
Lottie Oct 2015
You're stuck in the part where
You're having to live for other people,
But sooner rather than later,
You're going to start living for yourself
And the world looks so much better.

*the world becomes yours.
Tribute to my friend Bella.
Oct 2015 · 240
Fluttering.
Lottie Oct 2015
You don't trust me,
And I want you so far away.
She is too kind,
And you are too vain.
It is not her responsibility
To make up for the love
You failed to be given.
Learn.
Or I will campaign
For your removal
At her side.
Oct 2015 · 241
Blood dipped leaves
Lottie Oct 2015
Fall
               Down
Down
                  Down
Oct 2015 · 360
Label me some more.
Lottie Oct 2015
So, everyone in the world must
Have a gender identity. right?

I am coming out as human.
You going to choose how you
Treat me based off that, too?
this world is built by ignorant *******.
Oct 2015 · 271
Epiphany.
Lottie Oct 2015
I'm not good enough.
Oct 2015 · 278
Forest of words.
Lottie Oct 2015
Stumbling over phrases and meanings,
We are running from the roots of where
These metaphors emerged.
We turn the leaves of books and hope
That in the scrawls of lonely lovers,
We'll find a home, and freedom.
Lottie Oct 2015
I want to be perfection
But think of all the pizza
I'd have to stop eating.
Oh God, the horror.
Oct 2015 · 506
I wish.
Lottie Oct 2015
I wish I could show love,
Rather than just feel it.

I wish I could ignore hate
Instead of being consumed.

The desire to radiate the affection
I feel for others,
Rather than stuttering and stammering
When the words won't come out right
Or they are misinterpreted
Or merely disregarded
As lies.
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