You just left me
No warning
No signs
And you walked away
What did I do this time
It always seems to be me
And every time I try to succeed
I can not seem to breathe
Like my throats enclosing the air
And people around began to stare
But why are you doing this to me
Leaving ?

Every day is a new challenge
Every corner a bridge to burn
Yet I still stay hoping
That one day I'll be heard
That I wont be held down
To be made felt guilty

I struggle.
And every minute that passes by
I struggle
Digging my self deeper
Hand bleeding on this shovel
And I can no longer climb out of
What I have made myself out of
Who I surround myself with
None of it feels like my choice anymore
It all feels like a struggle
Eating and clawing away
Until what I have left of who I am
Is gone.

What do I want?
My heart says one thing
And my head the other
I'm stuck
Running into him
Was just my luck...

I don't know what to say anymore
Its like no matter what I want it never happens