If there's one thing I learned
About being in love while being young
Is
They
Won't
Stay.
You can go ahead and show them every single part of you and you can make promises of "forever and ever" and you can feel complete in their arms but somehow some way
They
Won't
Stay.
So go ahead. Show them.
Show your "true" lover your scars.
Show them your ugliness inside.
They won't stay.
They never do.

I floss my gums
Until they bleed
And smile a big toothy grin
While Watching my red spit

You made me think my own father wouldn't love me.
im sorry.
I just want to go to bed now.
okay, can I have a hug?
No.

I cannot cry twice in a day
Over a relationship
That ended seven months ago
But here I am
Wiping away the tears
Terrified that next month
Was suppose to be
Our 2 year.
And we won't spend it together.

I woke up today and I knew.
There was no way I'd make it through
My school day.
So I throw up my anxiety
And my mother thinks I'm
Truly sick.
I cry myself to sleep
And wake up
Numb

I wonder if you still love me. If you still care about me. I know Angel is better, but do you still think about me? Is there any chance in the world left that I could be with you again? We can close our eyes and pretend these past 7 months didn't happen.

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.