It's been a long time since me and mykayla have been together. Been even longer since we could say "forever".

His lips are at my hips
Oh sweet boy
Your tongue will be
My demise

I'm wrapped up in his arms
His kiss
His smile
This is the only time
That I don't feel alone

I wake up with
Last nights ghosts behind my eyes
Look around the room
And all I see is gray

I hate myself so much
I only let them **** me in the dark

I want to be dead so much
But I'm too scared about
What the afterlife is
If it even exists

I want to be gone
But if I'm dead
It won't matter
If they miss me cause
I won't be there to see it

He says he doesn't understand why I read all the time to escape. Says when the book ends, the fairy tale dream you're living in while reading ends.
doesn't he get it?
When I'm reading its one less minute, one less hour of wanting to **** myself.

I'm an unfinished
Sentence with horrid spelling
And strange punctuation
But if you read me
You feel the emotion
Puslsing out between the letters