and
i don't know
if this is me
just overreacting,
but
the only reason it scares me
when the wind causes my bedroom door to slam shut,
is because
i'm deeply afraid
that
i'll get used to the sound of people leaving.

T H I S
is what i scared the most
the radicalism
is it a good thing to be a little too radical?
to the point
where you put too much value... belief... ,
on that
in that

Things that'll make you
argue
disagree
disrespect
hatred
betrayed
sabotaged
even.. killing

See other thing with another negativity
JUST BECAUSE
people don't believe it the way you do

scary...
right?

:'/

I can’t shake
This feeling
Of drowning
Pleasantly
Terribly
Honestly
Hopelessly

Hopefully

I want to cry
And scream
And smile
And tear my gut open to let out the millions and millions of butterflies
Because they hurt
So nicely
But so, so
Much

And I didn’t know you could really crave a person
Like this
Their presence
Face
Hands
Laughter
Touch
Voice

Their being

This scares me
And I don’t
For the life of me
Want it to stop

to the dearest brother of mine
yes, it's you
one of the three, the dearest
you're the star i've seen since i was a kid
you're the best place i could cling to
you show me how a good boyfriend should treat a girl like me
you're the kind of gentlemen i wish i could found in another guy
and the way you see things differently,

wise
thoughtful
responsible
yet kind

thank you for acting like a father in times of need
but still a child when it comes to the playground

somehow somewhere it hurts me seeing you tie the knots
it makes me feel like "you're not mine anymore"
and i'm not your first responsibility, first priority no more
you're hers, and i'm not the only sister anymore
she's too lucky to have someone like you

things might change between us
you might never wonder about what's happened in my life, no more
but you're still the best brother i ever had
the best sibling ever <3

wish you forever happy!
and i hope you wish it for me too...

thank you for always being there through ups and downs
to the darkest of mine, brokenhearted, even to the love i choose

:D/\:D
CHEERS TO THE GREAT LIFE AHEAD BRO!