I think sometimes the worst part is realizing how lonely you are
thinking nobody is there for you
knowing nobody's there for you
it can be unbearable
that is unless you get used to it
but maybe that's even worse

someday i'll
fall asleep
to the sound
of your heartbeat.

And then I held my tongue
Blocked the words that were to fall
Took my time to turn
And walk away
But something stayed behind
A piece of myself,
A few unspoken words.
I turned once to observe
What departed.
And eyed him, with curiosity taking point.
He gathered the air
With a breath
A deep inner sigh.
Trying to collect what wasn't said
I turned to face the front
Denied my heart’s intent
To go back
And walked away
Was it the right thing to do?

Our minds are confused by the light we see, the artificial light we thought it was right.

I chose to play this inane game
I know exactly who to blame
I could have turned and walked away
But the hand was laid and my bet was made

WHAT THE **** CHANGED                              
WHY DIDNT IT WORK                                              
WHY DONT I EXIST TO YOU                                    
WHEN YOU EXIST IN EVERY                                  
******* THING IN THIS                                    
STUPID ******* WORLD                                    
I SEE YOU EVERYWHERE                                    
I SEE YOU IN THE ******* SKY                      
WHEN IM SMOKING LONELY CIGARETTES
AT 4 IN THE MORNING                                      
I SEE YOU IN THE STRANGERS THAT              
WALK PAST WITH BLANK FACES                      
BUT WHAT HURTS THE MOST IS THAT          
I CANT EVER SEE YOU AGAIN.    
                      
S.W