When i say that i hate myself i don't want you to say that i am beautiful and great i know that i am not any of that i am me and that is the problem i am going to be the problem until the day that i die which i do hope is soon and if it works, I''m so sorry that i couldn't stay and that i couldn't have been any happier believe me I tried so hard to be strong but i fear i can't keep this lie up any more i am so, so sorry but i just want to die please let me.
Am I alive or am I dead? My greatest regrets repeating in my head. Feeling so empty and cold, Like a puddle of my own blood, Forming the Silhouette of a mold. Wondering if I'll ever be missed? Trapped in my own darkness.. Lost to the lucidity of my mind. The depression, a war in time. Counting down the days left in my life line. Lost in all these sill rhymes, Trying to breathe, but no longer living, Lost all hope. Lost all meaning. Confused with what is real. Saying grace at my last meal. Counting down the seconds till death. Watching in hell as they put me to rest.
As I lay here, And think about all the times, I ****** up, Did you wrong, Made you cry, Made you feel worthless, Failed, Hurt, Let down, Yeah, Im worthless...