one dinner. just one ******* meal PLEASE i just want to have one meal without hearing you curse me under your breath.
yes my brother spilled his drink.
ONE ******* SPILL.
one.
spilled.
soda.
that’s what ******* set you off huh
THATS IT??
crying my ******* eyes out because
all i wish is to be okay.
i just want to be ******* okay
i want to know how it feels like to be in a loving family.
where i have both parents.
where my father isn’t abusive
where my mother isn’t struggling.
where i’m- loved.
and now, i tremble at the sound of footsteps walking by.
trembling, shaking, as i hear the shouting.
it’s my fault isn’t it
if i weren’t born none of this would happen.
none.
of.
it.
now here i am.
sobbing in the bathroom.
locking myself in the bathroom.
hoping i could at least figure out how to survive.
i just need to survive
move out when i’m 18,
think i’m crazy?
if only you ******* knew what happens at home.
all i really feels by now is pain and sadness.
to: my father. *******