I'm tired.
I am tired of being lied to.
I am tired of sitting on the sidelines waiting for you to throw me some scraps.
I am tired of hurting.
I am tired of feeling miserable.
I am tired.
I am tired of feeling like I cannot do anything because you will look at me like I did something wrong.
I am tired of finding things out because I had to be the ***** and go looking for the reality.
You put me in this spot where I have to be a *****.
Confront you about these things.
Or be a martyr by saying nothing.
Sit in silence while you run around happily oblivious
That I am ready to scream.
Trust is needed.
Respect is needed.
That is just not here.
Not in this relationship.
Not as it should be for a healthy relationship.
I see that the only one I can trust is myself.
When my instincts are kicking up it is for a reason.
Each and every time.
I'm happy that you found that trust and respect with someone at last.
Happy that you found someone that can give you what I cannot.
Happy that you found someone to adore you.
That was gone from me years ago.
The stars are long gone from my eyes.
You need to stop bullshitting me.
Talk to me honestly.
Or you have made the decision for us both.

Put away your tools. I only want you to hear.
Don't try to fix me. I cannot be fixed.
Accept that or not.
Don't question my pain when you have lied to me.
Don't question my instincts when they are correct
And you don't like the answer they find.
All I asked for was the whole truth.
You opted not to give it.
Suffer the consequences the same as I have had to.
Don't try to fix me. I cannot be fixed.
I ache with the emptiness I hold within.
We filled me with pain together
There's room for no more.
Don't ask me to be blind.
I see as I always have.
I cannot swallow the lies and omissions anymore.
I am bloated with them.
I cannot give what I do not have.
I cannot give what you will not accept.
The resentments will follow us unless
We can be truthful.
They consume us.
I cannot ask for what you will not give willingly.
Don't try to fix me. There is nothing left to fix.
Let us build something new with the truth.
Stop hiding and come build with me.
This is how you can help me and help us.