I filled the bathtub with tears last night
I'm not getting over this
(yes I am)
Is it possible to miss someone so much you're torn apart
(many can attest)
Why does my love always end up with the broken?
Why am I always drawn to the lost
(I'm searching for something imperfect)
I know the cost
(and pay I will)
I filled the bathtub with tears last night
Cause I just want the cycle to end
(no more emotions)
My life has no meaning
And I can't give it any, but you can
And I've never been good at leaving but I should be
You do it best and it's in your title to resign
(cause forever is a lie)
So tonight my friend I am filling the tub with tears for you
(which is unavailing)
And I cried too much last night
(won't ever do that again)
I don't ever want to feel again
(cause to feel is real and it's useless)
My brain is so sick
(I cannot find solace)
The problem is like fog
Hard to see through and thick
Just keep on crying about a mess that's not meant to be clean
Don't repeat the same mistakes
(i'll end up alone)
Life was always a dream
Just not the sweet kind
The kind where your tears overflow
(my heart was meant to be forlorn)
And you drown in your own sorrow
(despair my home)
I'm so tired of being sad, my new goal is to write something happy, hopefully I succeed, someone asked me "why do you focus on pain?" Well it's simple that's the only thing I ever feel strongly enough to truly write about. I want that to change. I want to write something beautiful again but not just something that shows the beauty of sadness but something that shows the beauty of the joys in life and I know I've felt them before it's just been a while and that's pretty ungrateful of me so really I have no room to extentuate myself ...