I painfully squint at
The pale, breathless light above.
Youthful hands caress my withered body.
Children incessantly bicker in the corner.

I feel the gentle warmth of his chest.
Erotically, he kisses my neck.

The deep breathing and trembling sorrow
Surrounds me; I feel I am drowning in oblivion.
I pray for this melodrama to cease forever.

I erupt with joy at his electric touch.
Lovingly, he kisses my brow.

Generations line the medicinal bed.
They weep and hold my wrinkled paw. My mind wanders.

I slowly run my hand across his divine face.
Tenderly, he kisses my lips.

Darkness, a piercing scream, a single tree. Nothing.

I see him quietly waiting by a rumbling stream.
Eternally, we are together.

I'm sinking, like a boat
hurtling towards an eternity of darkness and rust, washed beneath the tide.
I'm falling, like a scream
echoing throughout the chasm of my heart.
I'm sobbing, like a puppy
whimpering woefully at the imperial moon, longing for a home.
I'm waking, like a train
howling ferociously down the slippery tracks of life.
I'm rising, like a man
no longer hiding through the facade of a self-induced coma.
I'm fighting, like a snake
cornered by those who cower in the wake of its beauty.
I'm yelling, to silence
the preaching demons that cause me shame.
I'm smiling, to show
that my love for another man does not wallow in sin.
I'm singing, to allow
the joy I feel to bounce playfully off the valley walls.
I'm flying, to dance
among the white clouds that greet me like lovers.
I am a man, no longer ashamed,
no longer afraid, ready to love.