My presence unknown
My tears unseen
My screams unheard
My life undiscovered
My thoughts unsaid
My dreams impossible
I’m invisible

I explored all there was to see
cities, islands, mountains
there was a new place to visit every single day
each one full of life
I could see my dreams coming alive
but in my heart was a pang of longingness
I love all these places but at the end of the day
I just want to go back home and sleep in the same bed that I used to when I was a kid.

I have been broken and bent for so long
Not truly knowing where I belong
I feel the dread crippling through my veins
As I break and break again
I long to see the days
Where I’m finally taken away
From this dark and silent mind
To see what else I can find
Every second, minute, hour I’m here
I’m losing myself even further, I fear
I’ve spent so much time on the ground
Staring at the pieces of myself I’ve found
Still as I try to piece my heart back together again
Like a mosaic, it doesn’t quite fit right in
And so I rest and try again tomorrow
The crushing pang in my chest of sorrow
I rise and fall and rise and fall
I guess life really is a ride of heartbreak after all

the riptides poke at their flesh
forcing their skins to open as it bleeds freely into the icy water
it ****** their fingers and stings to the very core
violently tearing the soft covers that protect their bones from shattering
their teeth crushing onto each other at uncontrollable speed, biting onto their lips and tongues once in a while making their eyes tear up
the murky water fills their lungs with each breath they take,
their legs and arms flailing, trying to stay above but it's too strong
it bites back and forces them underneath,
suddenly there's no more thrashing, no more screaming
just silence
and the water stills...
but no one comes back up

stuck in the past
not in the present
not moving forward
instead going back in time
pieces of memories
burned in my mind
too caught up in that nightmare
to see what beauty today is
and so on it goes
like a song on repeat
same yesterday
same today
same tomorrow

Black and White
the world is colorless
I’m here feeling numb
you’re not beside me
so lost, I am
everything is so confusing
you sheltered me
from the outside
now that you’re gone
I’m left here on my own
I can’t see anything
except for black and white
I know I shouldn’t feel this way
after what you did to me
but I can’t help it
My love for you was real
If only you could say the same
such a tragic ending
not what I expected
but this is reality
I should stop daydreaming
because it always breaks my heart in the end

going back a few years
when i was just a little girl
stayed up all night
wondering where you were

whenever i asked mum
she would start to cry
and whisper in my ear
it'll all be okay

confused i hugged her
but still i was just a child
knew you were gone
but thought you'd come back

now more than ever
i want to know
why you'd left us
left us in the cold

every now and then
i try convincing myself
that you'd still come back
even though i know you won't

oh , how i love you
I’ve made you with my own bare hands
I’ve made you the trees, the earth, the water

oh , how I love you
The way you use my gift for you
It feels almost nostalgic

Oh, how i love you
The way you waste your purpose here
With selfish and greedy deeds

Oh, how i love you
The monster you’ve turned into
Now I must return the favor

you wear a mask everyday
retaining your thoughts to yourself
bearing a fake smile as you trudge through the halls

your head down, your pace quick
you disguise the hurt with pleasure
pleasure that quickly vanishes and is replaced with another

I catch a glimpse of you and my mind whirs
you never seem to show any other emotion than a smile on your charming face

I purposely walk in your direction and hastily bump your shoulder
looking into your eyes
and I can tell that only they show the true emotion you hide
the blue swirls hypnotizing me

they hold so much grief and I wonder
what has he gone through that brings him so much trouble
of course I never got to find out,
he was just a stranger that I wasn't supposed to know
and with that we both walked away

At night
the city lights up
it’s glow replacing the sun

At night
everything is peaceful
the faint noises still heard

At night
kids go up their roof
thinking about their past and future

At night
the stars holp up the moon
staying together until the sun comes up

And I say goodbye
as I fall… blissfully into a deep slumber
where all my vivid imagination stand in front of me
each one more quixotic than the other

droplets of water touches my revealed flesh,
sliding down until it reaches the end and drops onto the ground beneath my feet
i can no longer ignore the heaviness in my chest as the rain pours onto me and you come into view
my eyes glass over and soon the tears mix with the rain, and
the wracking of my shoulders begin
i entangle my arms around myself as if i can keep my broken self together somehow
my eyes wander to you and you unfold your arms, holding them straight out for me to run into
without my permission, my legs start moving on their own towards you and suddenly, i'm wrapped in your warm arms,
my ear on your beating heart,
t                         t
h                        h
   u                       u
     m                     m
        p                     p

you place a feathery kiss on my temple and i close my eyes, savoring this moment
my short quick breaths could still be heard as the tsunami coming out my eyes still wreck my face and you stand there,
softly tapping your fingers on the small of my back, slowly calming me down until my breathing becomes regular
and the tears come to an end, but we still stand there
embracing each other, encased in each other's scent
silently speaking unspoken words

Our souls rise
as our corpses lie still
silently roaming the earth
reuniting with our friends
sticking together
even after death itself
let them keep us in their minds
and close to their hearts
finally we rest in peace

The story of one can be heartwarming
I for one have known it
It started from when I saw a boy
Crying silently to himself
the other kids pushed and kicked
but never once did he speak
I went to them and stood up
they slowly gave up and left
He looked at me with desperation in his eyes
With the tears still flowing down
I helped him up and gave a hey
he smiled slightly and gave a wave
and that was the day I saved a life
just by helping him and being nice
right now we're the best of friends
living life and still moving forward

i came upon this place
over-crowded with people
overwhelmed with sadness
and they screamed
      " run, run
           as fast as you can
              as far from here
                    
                      escape

                   while you have the chance"
and i took my legs
as fast as they would go
and carried myself so far away
that the place i came upon
looked like a tiny dot
and gave a sigh of relief
for i had escaped in time

They can't help you
enveloped in the darkness
your screams don't reach their ears
your feet are frozen to the ground
unable to move or breathe
heart beats so loud
you want to get away
but the fear of what could happen
of what will happen
makes you stay put

Oh life
what have you got for me this time
i've been through highs and lows
but i haven't got much strength left

Oh life
what have you got for me this time
my bones are aching
and my heart keeps breaking

Oh life
what have you got for me
i'm in a hospital
and i'm running out of breath
(i'm running out of time)

my mind is all over the place
your voice getting faint
still can’t remember you clearly
only blurs remaining in my head

most memories forgotten
bits and pieces replaying
your face half covered up
your eyes as lifeless as me

sirens coming closer
hands forcing my eyes open
my lungs breathing for air
my arms becoming limp

my body becomes weaker
as somebody shouts at me
“ stay awake” over and over
if only they knew in a matter of time
I would be nothing just like them to me

the constellations of stars
as we stare silently into the dark abyss of the sky
remind me of how my heart used to align with *yours

our bodies are just a structure
it's basically a thing
we use it for fun and for pain
we wear it down until it can't stand anymore

our bodies are just things that we take for granted