A bell rings in the distance I hear but don't see The past calls out But I cannot answer I'm speechless So much at stake Yet I can do nothing Frozen in space Surrounded by everything All my senses alive I still cannot move Yet... The bell continues to ring And I can still hear it's melody All the while... I'm not moving
the truth tonight is useless I know what you'll say you'll say how much you love me and for me to go away this proposed disposal makes a girl feel like a queen buried 9 feet underground from there is where I scream thinking I was settled guess I didn't learn a thing cause here I am just spinning catch me puking in the sink draw out all these nights on a tiny piece of paper write down what I am then rip it up for later trying to be patient and waiting for your call ******* up my chance to talk I think I'll drink them all prepare yourself for pain my dear that's all you'll eat tonight swallow it like fire it's the burn you will not like trust yourself and you will find a tiny piece of mind & if she no longer wants you then you must leave her behind
this time tonight i fumble tumbling over my foolishness and crowding all of these spaces with the idea of you you and me and now it's just
you
me
separately is it actually better this way ? (babe) you were my present what I fought to search for you stood in my face in my shower you were here entirely waiting for me to see it and as soon as i did you left me
please don't cling to another chest i'm begging cause i'm still dangling from yours and love don't devour her soul mine is still everything with yours funny how pathetic rhymes so well with regret it's almost poetic how you gave me up to this necessity you say it so apathetically like i'm just suppose to be okay living without you
the last few nights i've been writing frightened trying to decide what's right in my mind but i'm blinded by this time this time this space it doesn't make sense to me to erase you while you replace me i've never felt so empty as i do right now reaching out to you and knowing you don't want it i'm being selfish i can't accept this and pounding my head against this table why do i torture myself when she doesn't want me