She's been leaving for months
sitting still long time gazing ahead
between woodland graves of companions
one whose habits came hers when she died
( we saw the transmission take place
when nestled together one night )
greeting each visitor in the driveway
and hunting
my garden cat
Lately all night under stars or clouds
no coming in for man lap naps
exploring high places indoors for daysleep
then cuddling in small low cocoons
Our connection deep by departure
assured her long job was complete

I braid my hair
hiding wits ends.
You tuck your shirt
as if we like
keeping it all within.

how poignant your music
expansive expression of soul
I treasure each moment of hearing
emotions exuberantly whole

from where this creation?

labyrinthine your verse yea rarely is terse
you tease me to follow you there
I cannot
philosopher ~ scholar you are
unlike me
choosing ease with my various pleasures

you birthed from me !

while loving you travel
through darkness and brightness
faithful to nurturing friendships
with those who respond at your level of truth
your innocence offering balance

possessing yourself  I've utmost respect
for all that you are and hold dear
future unwritten
create as you live
your dreams all become crystal clear

what I can do is to celebrate you
as you are
with gratitude to be your mother
as we are

Altogether too sane
to be poet of strenuous merit,
conforming with comfort as I do
within the vast middle.
Yet there is hope
as I seep through dissolving edges
of mass consciousness.

The beaming child you were
yet dances free inside
though masked with adult care
her essence you can't hide
She takes you unaware
her mischief never still
She'll grace your life with pride
just only say you will
Say Yes !
By dreams she is your guide
on godbeams shall you ride

for you, my friend
I practice attention
mesmerized by dignity
memorize a likeness
unified beauty
blue heron
stillness
strikes
home

I do not seek to change you.
you do this on your own
surprising yourself
delighting me
 *Shall I extend the same generosity
to myself ?

..............

.....................................

six days of practice dissolving illusion

mystical workings in sacred safe womb

  vacillate brave new from patterned habitual

wondering alchemically

integrate whom

..........
....

who is it now who loves me
who changes tune for every feast
of every new curve learned
who echoes deeply as I howl
responds to shimmies and the luster
sliding all along the rim
I like to think it's all of from him
but peering over edges I can see
who shines a light in darkness
It Is Me

leaves are fallen ~ open view to stars
So must I see
through loss

confident on timeworn routes
until unknown brings gasping fear*
what is this ?
my playground now to be reduced
to rutted paths of paltry use ?
enough !
power mine I have denied
creative pulses flattened
miming patterns drawn by others
spark of mine allowed to smother
shocked I recognize within
dryly spreading stubbornness
*the false vitality
of habit

body to psyche:
don't lift anything you are not willing to embrace
keeping distance leverages hurt

Bala Chandran
Crescent Moon
suspended in our sky
embracing curve with tender hooks
that we may display dreams on
singular light reflecting life
satisfied we meet your gaze

Silence for me
for awhile at HP
wintry season intense
I'll return when I'm able
to cruise with my muse
and absorb precious words you have written

on scaffolding of my delight
step sure onto sharp angles right

then fall through rotting layers of wrong
play hologram dear martyr's song
  
conceived in blind faith follow
spiral maze of story's wallow
  
inaction wrapped desire
calling forth creation's fire

**emerge onto no ground
find self
disband
embrace
surround

Beyond bare branches
Constellations shimmer bright
Uplifting my gaze

Let me remember that pathway to God
I have found in the sharing of essence
Honor the Goddess who breathes still within me
now so long forsaken-
in tribute to working day tasks
Let me see once again and feel with deep fervor
the magic of Sacred connection
For this is the reason
we bonded our Journeys the Pleasure our Birthright that lasts

on knees all day I pray
******* newborn shoots
****** vibrant from my earth
nurturing roots in darkness
soothing love moist mantle
under sun benign*
*expanding joy in growth

I retreat
allowing bones to rest on heat
asking them to do no work
shirk responsibilities....
Where are they now ?
Respond to body, just to me
stopping this insanity
not viewing life as one long test
of strength, endurance, be the best
resisting seeing me as wrong
which I have done all along
Give more, appease that judge within
who's never pleased, with focus grim
so now I stop and just receive
the love that's mine
no cause to grieve.

abandon me slowly
go to the place where you are holy
within the realm you call your own

abandon me swiftly
that I may fall
firm in my place
where I shall find me

abandon me
to the path of myself
where I shall dance
my way*
*with abandon

We birds find food near end of day
springing from the ground
to shake wild seeds afree
See low a cat creeps now so near
We are the subject of his walk
Leap to the meager air we fly
Safe from hunter's stalk

early autumn chill
somber toning frogling bass
stars beam silent truth

wake me in time to look in your eyes
before we trapeze through our day
to savor the breath of connection
to merge into our reflection
to know who it is that we are in this moment
before we meet again changed

Perverse it is that I will party in december
and squeeze gifts from nine *******
when what I long for is to go deep
running my hands along smooth dark cavern walls
perhaps pausing
my finger in the ****
dreaming to hold back
the torrent of all that is emerging
in these final days of year
when I Earth Centered Pagan Pray
to be delivered from longest night.

Moedernacht, Modranicht
Night of Mother Earth
birthing Christed humankind
new strain of cosmic worth
Earthened Spirit rich with Darkness
Now Enlightened Dance
Rejoice the Yule, Creations jewel
for Soul's deliverance

Beyond the rules of reason
our field of co-creation
where linkage has no impact
on present living play
relaxed expanding essence
expression of desire
manifesting dreams now
this magic is our way

free fall surrender
gifting fiery ripeness
feeding mother's earth

cycle turning in
wind assisted letting go
time of brave response

I too wear a cloak
buffered from the coldest winds
fire in my core

dreams and desires
deliberate fires
surrounding , expanding my realm

I feed and am fed
inspiration , obsession
creating til weariness wins

   fire and hunger
never fulfilled
surrender mind body and soul
tempered kindling

His partner is the sun.
He slides to catch warm rays.
He stays 'til he's undone.
Subtle revel in his plays.

I try to be no bother
make only small and sweet
but energy expands in waves
that cannot be discreet
with mouth shut tight  
expression felt
as hobbled crazy
laughs and screams
**from deepest night  
Sand Crane wails despair.

intending Walkabout
with personal creations all acrumble as we move
our long held sacred stories  shown untrue
but let us go
the dreaming muscle will sustain
beauty consciousness entrain
unknown need not submit to fears
the demons not to rule
with baggage left behind us
we can swing a freedom dance
lessons need not bear a whip
we may just ride creatorship
trust love to rise above the mask
and find we're worthy of no task
and suffering just may not after all
*be the chosen path

You know what I am
One side and the other
Dawdling dreamer to the left
****, do it now by right

Separation by design
How clever safely kept
Yet merge and melt the magic path
when hands are clasped voice rings from center
Surprise result
Human roulette.

Though I peer deeply all I see
are my perceptions reflecting me.

heart protected
chest pulled close
stance of ready armor
keeping shallow breath of life
expansion so much trouble
then once again
courageous choice
admitting healing touch
allowing what is buried deep
freedom  dance  arising
*allowing what is buried deep
freedom  dance  arising

cycling and recycling
devotion to remotion
a spiral past  a comfort blast
well known save our rewriting
yet here we tumble on
to spiral all unknown
  fresh emotions rising
  potent and enlivening

years together
assume naught to discover
yet this very day
we've been never this way
presently changing
beyond rearranging
perhaps you don't recognize me
and  who  
now  
are  you ?

Chiding myself seeking life in death
bird is fed from rich fallen tree.
As she finds, I know
living's not as it seems:
To Be Is to Be Is to Be
~~~~

Considered by me only
after countless casualties
result of internal battle

Surrender
to this moment
to what is
within and before me
not judging right or wrong


Receive what Is.

Then

Make
a
Choice

Shape now your vision
Your Sun is new risen

Metal and Fire
Dreams and Desire

Bring forth as you dare
your excitement to share

Metal and Fire
Dreams and Desire

Your heat shall meld pieces unto each other
Gone is the option to hide under cover

Metal and Fire
Dreams and Desire

I see who you are
dear bright Earthened Star

*Metal and Fire
Dreams and Desire

Excited I am
immersed in your music
to witness essential soul
   flowing through fingers
in passionate dances
  raw tenders with humorous roll.

Variant genius
your stories recanted
in cadence to memories drive
now syncopate rhythm with fresh melodia
haunt intertwining vines.

Joyous transmissions
you have developed
beyond the range of words
evolving anew
each time that you play them
vitality trilling the urge !

You stand before the cutting board,
Excited, eyes wide
Juices flowing in your mouth
and in the tender meat.
Oh, my Sweet,
Turn your hunger on me !
Devour me too !