So many doubts in my mind
got to clear I was  determined
asked the perfect he didn't say
asked the cleverest he got away
Then I rushed to the elder
Who was glad to see me there
Instead of answers
he threw me doubts
there I stood still again
Still without any gain..

Of the millions & millions of stars around
I had a special affection towards a twinkling star but the twinkling star didn't want it to be liked by some one else
and there I stood aside my window
staring at the star and wondering
why I was left alone.

Am I dreaming things that no one ever thinks?
Am I being illogical or has the world gone irrational?
Am I seeking for answers for which the question is uncertain?
Am I writing in midair or is the world listening?
Am I wasting my time waiting for the right time?

Somewhere in the forest I hid my dreams
I bid farewell and let it free
It followed me north it followed me south
 East & west it chased me far
I tried to play hide & seek
it made me feel like a thief
Found a way to getaway
Stay awake so it will go away..

She was not a foe
she was a lot of love
She left me behind here
Where here is nowhere I know

I had the poem in my mind
My mind was filled with all the lines
I thought of writing them all at once
Once I got the pen to write
I found them all hiding,
behind the wall of mind
I asked them to come out of blind
The poem that came out was one of a kind
The kind that savours the mind of a kind.

Oh I have felt fear
and oh I have felt love
Is it ok to love my fear
As my fear is the love of my life and the reason of my life
My family is whom I live for
The same family that is against,
the love of my life
They both want me in their life
And their I am trying to figure out
Which weighs more?
Either The Love of my life or
The Reason for My life.

Where are you my love?
I can’t find you
Are you okay my love?
I hope you are doing well
I hid you beneath my mind
So that no one would find you
I made up stories to relieve my pain
Now that I lost my mind,
I can’t find you anymore
Farewell, my hidden love wherever you are..

Let it go Let it go they say
Take me away Take me away she say
I wanna play I wanna play the child say
Let us pray Let us pray the Parents say
Come to the bay come to the bay the friends say
Walk away walk away my Mind say
And I walked away

The poison in me grew
I felt the poison kept me carry on
It wanted to showcase me as a gentleman
But I always knew it was a mask
A mask that hid the truth
The truth loved the mask
As it made him a gentleman
Now I have a doubt
Am I aware that I am a gentleman?