Verse 1
Beautiful Girl, you got my attention
With a smile that could make the sun shy
and your hair that shine like pearls
deep down the ocean

you are like, a moving painting
drawn into life by an artist
you’re an epic masterpiece i
cant take my eyes off you

Pre
If you only know what dwells inside
This heart you’d find it.
If I could just have the courage to say it and
make you mine

Chorus
Hold my breath
counting down the days with no regrets
Living life for a stranger that I've never met
got me so twisted
waiting for the day you get me lifted

Verse 2
I'm under a spell, enchanted by your scintillating smile
sleepless for days, walking the miles
just to get to you

I found the meaning,
of life, that's what you are to me
gonna love you so tenderly

Pre
I wish, You're a mind reader
and touch my hand like braille
the secret between the lines is where
you belong

Chorus

Bridge
You breathe life into me
once dying now Undying to be
with you

You're everything to me
eyes shut now, you're all I see
right now

Chorus

Hold on to me.  'till you break me in pieces. Only to put me back together again.

Give me a moment, and I'll give you forever.  Give me your winter and I'll give you my summer.  Give me your kiss, and I'll give you my soul.  Give me your youth so we'll never  grow old.  Give me your light, and I'll give you the stars.  I will always be near, even if you are far.  Give me your wrongs, and I'll give you my rights.  Give me your heart, and I'll give you my Life..

Where are you? will I know when I meet you?
I exhale a lonely sigh, Wonder if you Breathe the same air.
Counting the stars, Passing the time, Could you be something that's mine?
I ponder, Deep in thoughts, Peeking through between the stalks.
Expecting the most beautiful face.
the one I see in my most dormant dreams.
Overseas and miles apart, Yet you're the one who's stolen my heart
I haven't met you yet, but i've felt you in my dreams
Love transcends distances
Love is not a wifi signal.

You're Free now.  Come Back anytime.

This is
My wish for you: Comfort on hard days, smiles when
Sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter and KIsses on
Your lips, sunsets to stimulate your heart, hugs when
you have a Sunken spirit, beauty for your eyes to see,
Friendships to rejoice your character, faith so
You can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to
Know yourself, endurance to accept the truth,
and Love to complete your life.

I must've witnessed a dozen of sunsets by a giant body of water on my own. Until now, I'm still waiting to share that perfect ethereal moment with a person that I would spend the rest of my life with. you know, a very cliché "my arms wrapped around you" type of ordeal. the kind of moment that would definitely make you believe in "true love" existing in such a superficial world like today. there's just something about the beauty of ending a good day with someone that you truly do cherish and adore. *sigh

This silence is as loud as a resounding gong that shakes my soul, to the point where my vision blurs and my heart shatters. what does it take for you to see me or to just acknowledge the fact that I still exist. how can I let you know that if you ever tried to pry me open like an old dusty casket, the only thing you would see is my dead body clenching on a photograph of you, a relic that was suppose to be long forgotten and buried in the past. long gone are the days I spent under the sun, I lay dormant here with my only company; loneliness and despair. Still waiting for the day that I will rise again"

The Most Beautiful Girl
When I first met you, I had an argument with my heart, along with my breath. I was fighting with them. A nonsensical argument, on who i should catch first. I never knew who won between the two but, All I know, from that day, I knew, that I wanted you desperately. There was something about you, that pulls me in, and keeps me there. something beyond this world. something Ethereal. something that, Up until now, I'm still finding it hard to figure out. was it your smile? the sound of your voice? your laugh perhaps? or could it be the way you simply look at me. those eyes. god those eyes. i hold my breath, every time you stare at me. it feels as if, I'm drowning in a pool in a restraint jacket. I feel helpless. I wish, I could, sum up the courage to tell you exactly how I feel about you. I wish that, there was some magical drug, that would make you read my mind, and let you know exactly what i feel. I really wish, You know what i'm going through. You have no Idea, how hard it is to hide my feelings, whenever you're around me. I feel like a coke can shaken up, wanting to explode but, your fingers wouldn't open the tab. gosh, I wish i could tell you exactly how i feel about you. How the slightest curve of your mouth, means the most happiest moment of my life. and when your hair billows against the wind, i can feel my heart racing,. Your scent, Don't even get me started with your scent. there are a lot of places, that i haven't seen. or things that I haven't done, but as long as I have the moment, to even spend just a second with you. I know, deep down, that I could die, a Happy man. I swear, I didn't Plan to feel this way. This had blind sided me, out of no where. I thought, You were just another girl that would casually pass me by. but somehow, you've hooked me, towing along with you not knowing, and that kills me deep down. believe me, whatever is written here, is not even a fraction on what I feel for you. I'm literally dying, without you knowing it....

I hate heights, it reminds me of falling. And falling, is a sensation that i can never get used too.  I feel helpless, i feel like, i’m out of control.  I feel like, life has completely taken over me, and the only thing i can ever do is, let life take it’s course. And ride here as a passenger.  What is it with falling?  Why do we fall?  Why do we take chances, and take a leap, even if we know that, it’s the most terrifying thing you could ever do with one's life.  Do we all get pleasure with fear? or is it something beyond that?   I hate falling….

dear past
dear past do you remember me?
im your future that you didn't see
coz you thought everything would be alright
you were careless and free day and night
you thought you would be ok when u decide
to **** the love that you have inside
little that you know how it would be
that you werent strong jus look at me

you thought you can fight it you tought you can live
start alll over again wit a heart to give
now i live my life with misery and pain
wondering how i could stop this rain
wishing that i didn't do what i did wrong
listening to this endles sad song

so past please try to understand
that everytime you hold her hand
cherish it even if you know
that someday she might go
to find out that she's with another
is the hardes pain you wont recover

How can I touch a Star in the sky?  The one that shines the brightest.  Should I learn how to fly or Breathe in outer space?      Maybe I should just watch and wait for it to fall.  But, then again, what are the chances, that it will land in front of me?

The stars are still shining in the velvety sky. The sun is still slumbering, deep within the horizon. People are clamouring about, rushing to get to work, scattered on top of a dark, wet and glossy pavement. Some consider this as the start of their day, some the end and some are still sleeping. Life truly is unbounded.

Tea cup, oh tea cup. warm and cozy.
Keep me company tonight at my time of lonely.
stay in my hand and keep me in glee
make me laugh and smile as i drink you slowly.
for life is too short to be filled with anxiety,
fill it instead, with love and hope in its entirety.
with every sip of you, i feel a little happy,
and every scent i smell, makes me forget my worry

tea cup, oh tea cup, warm and cozy.
Keep me company tonight at my time of lonely.

You’re in my thoughts, and in my words
Every romantic line you’ve ever heard
Unexpected and unplanned
I drifted towards your ocean sand

Like a light or a beacon
That shined on me with no reason
You showed beauty in my days
Even brighter than the sun’s rays

You’re everything to me now
I have no power to control it somehow
You take away all the misery and pain
And shelter me from this pouring rain

So I pray that you will forever stay
And that you will never ever take yourself away
‘Cause now you are the biggest part of me
And  you are the only smile I’d ever want to see

Waiting for the day that never comes
in the darkness, my soul succumbs
weary, lying in the puddle of unjust
i drown my self here, in an ocean of lust
mixing pain and pleasure, the line has blurred
jabbing me with prejudice, word for word
was i ever wrong to have fallen?
heart on a sleeve that's stolen
a thief in the night, with no warning
but yet a thief that i'm still yearning.

Why do I love you? a simple question really, but yet, the answers that comes to my mind are all fuzzy and intangible. Like a tangled ball of yarn or a busy city block. Words are lost needles between the biggest pile of haystacks, or a matching sock after laundry day. It's indescribable! comparable to the miracle of a sunrise or the mystery of life itself. I don't mean to sound overly dramatic but, I just want to stress the overwhelming emotions that takes over me, whenever I think about how blessed I am, to have the opportunity to live a life with your effervescent existence. To put it more in shallow words; I guess it's the way you look at me with your pretty, pretty face, that I could never get tired of looking at, or how your eyes glimmer in the sunlight. that beautiful smile that strikes a chord in my heartstrings every time. Your scent that lingers in my senses even after you left the room, your touch, the taste of your kiss. Your sense of humour, your laughter, how you find my dry jokes funny, your love of art, and your scholar like intelligence and the tenderness of your heart, not just towards me but, to other people as well. You're always caring, always attentive and always generous. You are the most humble person I've ever known, I love your gentle soul and your belief in God. You are the absolute definition of empathy. And the way I feel around you, is more than enough for me to love life to the fullest, and to look forward to more days spent with you. As much as I want to describe you in words, somehow I still feel that they seem to flow out cold and flat. Words can't justify the way I feel about you. I suppose you can call it fate, or destiny, typical words that any romantic fool would say. I don't care much about clichés, and I know it sounds hypocritical but, I guess to answer that question in the most simplest manner, is like this: "I just do..."

Could I be With you?
Even for just a little bit,
would you give me this chance?
It's been a very long time since I Experienced Romance.

I've been Hurt before, and fell Apart
She broke me in Pieces, and took my heart
But that was long ago, I've manage to grow one that's bigger.
More Resilient, Less Naïve, and full of Rigor

I've Picked up all my pieces, I've glued them back together,
I just need someone to hold me,
Tight enough to make my Broken Pieces Stronger.

Let me Try to love, with the knowledge I've learned
for the belief I once had with love, has now returned
I'm a Flower in spring time, alive and in full bloom
Resurrected from the dead, out of this Tomb

Could I be With you?
Even For Just a little bit?
We can go on an Adventure Together.
we'll never know unless we try.

I laid there, battered and bruise atop of that cold white blanket, my eyes looking up and the Back of my head pressed firmly down the snow. I took a moment and just paused, mesmerised by the beautiful dark and velvety sky, pelted with starlight. I still remember how “Zen” like that moment felt. It was a time in my life, that I just let go of everything. I felt no care, no anguish or no concern. Moments like those makes one appreciate the little things in life that we all tend to overlook.

I sit and watch as time stood still
got a life that's there to ****
a voice inside says let it be
I said "sure but let me see"

I looked and I found, I asked and receive
something to live with and something to believe
got my sight set, I aim for the goal
wont settle for less.. I want it all

I left all my troubles behind me
out there in the open for someone to find me
sure to accept for this is my fate
I will start now, coz it's never too late

Hey! I'm really digging this song called "Life".  Could you be my Dance partner?  I'm not much of a dancer but, I'll sure hell try, if you're willing to participate with me. I apologize in advance, if I step on your toes once or twice.  People make mistakes right? Nobody is perfect but, Maybe You could teach me a thing or two?  I'm really good at following instructions, and I believe that, from what I’ve seen in you, you would be an adequate teacher.  We could do this forever.  but I guess, we wouldn't know until we try right?  Dance with me before the music ends? :)

You should be loved as  if you were the last breath, a person will ever breathe.  Like tomorrow will never come, or will never feel the warmth of the sun.

You should be loved, as deep as the deepest ocean trenches, honored as high as the highest mountain.  adored as the most beautiful fountain.

you should be loved, more than a person could ever be loved, stronger than the winds of a hurricane, come inside these arms of mine, and let me shelter you from the storm.

I saw an angel without her wings
She walks on the ground
She was looking profound

A beam of light shined out her smile
It went my way
Leading me astray

Then suddenly, I started falling
The ribs on my chest slowly opened.

Revealing all my tender spots
She saw right through me
I shook uncontrollably

A paradox that’s made with flesh
She whispered the words
Without being heard

Then suddenly, I start to shatter
In numbers that did not matter

The angel took my very soul
She stripped my name
I was not the same

Casted me off to outer space
An empty husk
Worth less than dust

Then suddenly, I started fading
Into the dark where I was wading

I turned to void all of my wishes
While all that time she’s who I’m missing

I love the way how the sunlight pirouettes on your fair skin. Dancing on a melody of your slow breathing. I wonder what you're dreaming of? I wonder if it's me? despite all that, I don't really care. All that maters is, I'm in this moment, Basking in the morning sun, just laying here anticipating the next thing you'd say

I'm counting the stars,making wishes on a passenger car.
waiting for the distance to retract from where you are.
with every minute that lasts as long as hours
watching cascades of water from this shower
on this window pane. unbearable, the moment became.

but the anticipation out weighs the weight
of this heavy burden on this long freight.
the chance to pronounce your name
is more than enough for me to refrain.

I am blessed for another chance to embrace,
and to simply look upon your beautiful face,
that's all I need for me to keep treading more.
an incentive to be with the person I'm longing for.

Dear lady in the bus, puffing your face in such a rush. your mask, a combination of powder and paint, with enough perfume to make one faint. Is this your armor to conceal yourself? Or a signal that you need help? Does your loneliness affect who you really are? to be close to someone but yet, emotionally far. You're beautiful inside and out, regardless of what color is your mouth. I don't mean to impose, but by the way your man poses, his swagger and arrogant arms around you, he won't get to know the real you, the way that I would do.

I love watching the fire dance in the fireplace. This silent white blanket, this winters music.  This feeling of warmth and peace, perfectly amalgamated into one harmonious symphony. In a starless night, the only light I need is the one casting silhouettes on my ceiling, that keeps me accompanied through this cold moment of darkness.  I am one with solitude now.  I am not alone..

His head pressed against the window, with the rain cascading down the glass like a waterfall mimicking the tears on his cheeks. He ponders about his misfortune. He doesn't know why, or how all this have transpired, for his mind is a jumbled ball of yarn, tangled in a hot mess. He looks out, wondering if the movement of this bus will somehow give him a glimmer of hope, but his vision is blurry, his mouth dry, and the passing of the street lights flashing before his eyes started to transform into a memory, that he wished he had already forgotten. He is lost....

The best part of my evening is sleeping with your ghost beside me.  It gives me a melodramatic feeling of an empty pleasure, that abruptly halts, the moment the sunlight hits my face. A wake up slap for existing in reality.

Pretty Lady in the bus glancing at me, I wonder if your eyes could see what I could see. A beauty that is beyond this world, the most greatest story that's  ever been told. Will I be dancing in the dark from now on? Will I be searching for you when you're gone?

The feeling of awe when the moonlight pirouettes through my window pane.  A feeling of content, a feeling that feels like I'm not alone. A "partenaire de danse" in this evenings tango

I guess you're happy now,  I can see it with your smile.
the way you look when he has his arms around you,
took me a while

to realize that, Just so you know.  All this time when I thought that letting you go,
was a finite reason, for my own happiness.  But I must say,  Sometimes Happiness, is not all that good you see

I miss the argument, I miss the pain,  I miss the times you were driving me insane.

A rhyme with no reason but yet, I'm left in Vain.

I counted the days, and watched my life pass me by,
and everyday,  I try my hardest to push the memories aside.

Day by day, the scent of you still lingers whenever I breathe in.  I get so emotional.  even from the tiniest hairs that you left behind on my floor.  it makes me even more sad, because, no mater how much I try to collect as much of these,  I can never make another you.  

I guess you're happy now,  you're out there, smiling and laughing with someone else.  Something that you and I use to enjoyed so much.

I am the master of my destiny
My head looking up high, beyond the clouds
Slowly unveiling the path I am eager to venture

I alone, the only capable person
That can pick up the shattered remains
Of my yesterday, to put them back together again.
Back to its former glory

I was lonely, depressed, and desperate
For company, for love and for joy
Hoping to find it with someone yet,
No one had ever come close, to fulfil my selfless wishes.

It’s time, to view inward and not out, to break out of this endless cliché, to achieve the unachievable, unreachable, unobtainable dream;

to be happy.

And even if I fall, I know I can pick myself up again. But this time, I won’t be asking for anyone's hands…

I cut myself with my own broken pieces, and swim in a puddle of anguish that I, had bled out through my vains.  I bear a gaping wound that can never mend, never heal, and forever emblazoned on my skin, A marquee of a warning  posted right on a facade of smiles. With burden as my closest peer, I converse and ask questions with no supposition on any cogent answers.  So I trudge.  To where? I don't know... I suppose a more suitable question is: why?  My answer is simply this: because I'm Alive...

Would you notice me? Like the colours of the autumn leaves, would you see me? A desperation for attention, has crept through my veins. I want you to want me, so bad, and drag me by the reigns. Hold me with tenderness, own me like you own me. Let me feel your carress, between this invisible space, and condone me.  I fell so fast, here whithin this moving box of steel.  With so many others here, but yet, it's you who I feel.  As we parted ways, I said goodbye indirectly. My sincere sigh, that it wasn't meant to be.

Beating thump
And a shaking ****
A Body shaped like an hour glass

Sink my face
In a flesh of grace
Like a man born in the upper class

Sway to the music, feel the rhythm
$20 bucks a Pop, you make a living.

Pole for a partner, the centre of attention
Giving all the boys a massive *******
Living the life of lime,
All for some pennies and dimes

You're more than that, more than you know

More than any body part you can ever show

Put off the Red light, let go of the pole

Open your heart instead, and see through your soul.

do i make you mad by the way i act?
was it my intelligence that i poorly lack?
u can say all u can say, i am who i am
coz only i can do what no one else can

was it bad that i live the way i live?
is it wrong for me to give the only thing i give?
maybe for you but this i understand
coz only i can do what no one else can

I'm not as good looking as your magazine boys
or i might not even have a car or those fancy toys
im not a star i don't have fans
but only i can do what no one else can

i'ved learned in life never judge a book by it's cover
and when u start something you don't stop till it's over
i know how to live, this is part of my plan
coz only i can do what no one else can

u can mock or say all those hurtful words
or u can treat me like i'm nothing more than a ****
sticks and stones wont break my bones, I'll just say this again
only i can do what no one else can

money cant buy you happiness i learned that the hard way
that's why i live my life however i see it my way
i battle everyday with my weapons a pad and a pen
coz only i can do what no one else can

you can hate me when i laugh out loud
let it bother you that i stand out in a crowd
allow my reasons for me being me disturb your inner den
but still
only i can do what no one else can

DId the passion died? Did it wither away?
Did the wind carry the petals, torpid and grey?
Did the once luminescent ember, that burned red had turned to ash?
extinguished by a few select words that was, rather rash?

I ponder in deep thoughts while I drown in sorrow.
The cross I bare is heavy, and the passage I trek is narrow.
The suffering is now acquainted with my stride,
and the loneliness unveiled itself and became my bride.

I kiss my sadness, right on it's lips
and embrace my adversity, with my finger tips,
because the spaces between my hands, that was once filled with "hers",
No longer need company, and no longer need words...

You are the light that shined on my darkest days

The answer to every prayer that I have ever prayed

A sign of hope that you'd hear people say

From here on out everything will be ok




I can compare you to a fluke accident

Because I found you while in a worst predicament

On your white horse you arrived in astonishment

And saved me from an absolute abolishment



Words are not enough to describe

The overjoyed feeling I feel inside

To have finally found someone to confide

And tell the whole world that you are mine

Won’t you come and comfort me?  Blind me with angst, and fill my eyes with tears.  Bathe me with dismay, in your pool of fears.  Embrace me with regrets, caress me with hate.  I will not question you at all, for this is my fate.  Constrict me with your tendrils, do it with glee.  Hold me close in your darkness and never set me free.  Tell me lies, sing them like lullabies.  Let me sleep encapsulated in a blanket of demise.  Make me dream nightmares, the scariest ones. Tear my soul into pieces, then burn them in a thousand suns. You are my friend, my lover and my wife.  Ever since the day she left my life.  You’re the greatest company I have ever had.  So please stay eternaly, and make me sad.

Forever yours,

Kiss me like you mean it, touch me like you do. Let it linger in the Meadows,  and sweet like honey dew.  In the heat of the summer, you and I are subdued. Twisted and contorted, stuck together like glue. Your tenderness, endearing. passionate out of scale. Love me excessively untill my skin turns pale. Never let me go, never be exhausted. Paint me in red all over, untill we are encrusted.

“I can still feel the warmth of your body pressed against mine.  We were watching fireworks by the lake, during Canada day, there was a slight chill in the air but I didn’t mind this at all.  I had my arms wrapped around your waist and the back of your head was resting on my chest.  We were both looking up in the sky in awe, as it exploded with multiple different shapes and colors.  That moment for me felt like a dream, it felt like my life could never be better.  It was like something that you could only read about in Romantic novels or see in movies. I didn’t know that such a feeling was ever possible. To experience such an ethereal, unmoving moment in your life, and it didn’t even compare from what I had imagined before.  The connection between two people with different views and beliefs, somehow found their way to each other, standing there on the beach frozen in time while everyone around were loud, noisy, and full of movement.  You and I were perfectly still, and we didn’t care about anything else that was happening around us.  With my heart beating uncontrollably, at that very moment in time I knew I was in love.  I wanted to stay in that moment forever, I didn’t want to leave that spot that we were standing on and go back to my ordinary life, I just wanted to be there with you until everything else just faded away and that the only thing I could see or feel or hear, was you.  But like every great moments, it must come to an end.  The last firework exploded as a big sphere of light in the sky and people applauded.  I remember how amazed and astonished you were when you looked at me and exhaled “Wow! Did you see that? That was amazing!”  I love how your face look like when you smile, it wasn’t pretentious or forced.  I also love the sound of your laugh, which highlights your smile even more.  Like a child giggling after hearing a silly joke, it was true and innocent.  I never knew that one day, all of those would disappear.  When I was with you, I thought that I would feel this way for the rest of my life, but like those fireworks, they do come to an end. I know, someday I will find someone, and I also know that someday I will fall in love again.  I would probably find the love I truly deserve, but the saddest part about it all, is that it wouldn’t be with you and it would be different.  It won’t be the same love, the love that taught me how to feel this way in the first place.”

Time is an essence but still I miss your presence here
Thought I paid all my penance and erased all of my fears
I find it hard to condone the reality of your absence but still
I have a heart, dry as a bone, with all these memories to ****

It’s as if neither heaven nor hell could ever be an answer
To the questions you left behind that I must now ponder
Was it me or was it you?  
Was it Fake or was it true?

Unsurmisable this epic tale that hasn’t reached its end
Insurmountable a two headed beast of guilt and hurt that I must tend
A cry that echoes from the deepest darkest bowels of the earth
To the farthest, widest, vast heavens
A sigh of loneliness that is incomparable with any tragedy’s worth
And worst of all, a heart that’s broken

A wish
I watched the sky tonight and saw a shooting star. Excited, I placed my hands in my pockets, closed my eyes and concentrated on making a wish.  I ask for happiness to be fulfilled for a person that I truly and sincerely care about.  I wished that she would find peace of mind, that she may find the courage to face the day regardless of all the hardship and dismay it offers.  I wished she would find the courage to smile, maintain delight and keep living life to its fullest extent regardless of the world presenting itself as a grim, iniquitous and relentless person.   I wished that she could find the strength to cope, after experiencing several, unfair and traumatic hardships of everyday living.  Most importantly, I wished that she would find Love.  After making my wish, the shooting star finally disappeared in the sky.  Feeling at ease, I felt content with my wish, with full knowledge that this person I was wishing for would never end up being with me. After exhausting all possible ways to make her fall in love, I took the chance as a last ditch effort to make her happy and wished upon a shooting star. I know this well, From What I’ve learned before, life never gives what you earnestly want, but only what you need.  I waited for several moments for another shooting star so I could make a wish for me.  But nothing was showing.  It made me realize that maybe I should stop wishing, but start praying instead, so I turned to my faith, knelt down, placed my hands together, closed my eyes and concentrated on a prayer.  I prayed for happiness to be fulfilled for me, the only person that I should sincerely care about.  I prayed that I would find peace of mind,   that I may find the courage to face the day of all the hardship and dismay it offers.  I prayed that I would find the courage to smile, maintain delight and keep living life to its fullest extent, regardless of the world presenting itself as a grim, iniquitous and relentless person.  I prayed that I could find the strength to cope, after experiencing several, unfair and traumatic hardship of everyday living.  But most importantly, I prayed that I would find love and finally I added:  Dear God,  if I can’t find love with another person,  please give me the tenacity to find it within myself through your words, wisdom and eternal passion.  Amen

an eternity to wait and a life time to fulfill

a picture of your face in my heart is instilled

with my endless nights and my lonely days

u came from nowhere & shined like the suns rays



a new hope for my withering soul

death was upon me, i could hear the bell toll

i was lost and hopeless looking for a sign

and there you were as the universe aligned



if only you know what this means to me

i may not be with you, but i thank you eternally

i will pull the moon down and all of the stars

just to be with you wherever you are



i cant find the words to say

or even explain what i felt that day

there is no poem that i could ever write

how you changed my wrongs into everything right



but all these words i could never say

because i fear that it might just scare you away

although i really wish that you would feel it too

when i stare into your eyes to let you know it's true

still in my heart this I say
as I close my eyes and drift away
slowly I feel your touch once more
I hear your heart beating like before

in a dream so real, I wished I stayed
like a character in a show that I once played
it started with laughter and a few cheers
nothing else mattered when I had you near

you said your lines and I believe it was real
got me in so deep with everything I feel
but as the show went on it all turned sour
the curtain closed down in the final hour

you took a bow, as I walked away
then woke up this morning with a smile today
to think that it was all fabricated in my mind
what I once was seeking, now I find

the truth hurts, so I must accept
now live life where there is no regret
our time is short, we don't have lots
joy will be found, when the madness stops

I love my Hair That falls down my face, I love it even more when it shines with the suns rays

I love my eyes, They’re dark and deep, The only time I really close them is when I fall asleep

I love my smile, That I show to the world, I like Spreading happiness with it to every Boy or Girl

I love my skin, every  freckle and mole. It reminds me that I am the one me. Heart body and soul

I love every single part of me, That makes me “the only me” In a world filled with so many others, These things that I possess are the only thing that matters

They’re not wrinkles they’re laugh lines, They’re not yours, they’re mine, It is God's blessing, a gift from heaven. Another me out there, will never happen

In this darkness I rest in this solemn fate

This empty space surrounded by hate

No peace, no serenity, no salvation

No hope, no love, no solution



Unaware if my eyes are closed or open

With A heart, battered, bruised and swollen

The walls are closing, I feel constricted

Words like brail are all encrypted



I clenched my hands till it bled

From hurtful words often said

A mouth, dry like the dessert sand

filled With spoken words that none understand



“Help!” I screamed, “Get me out of here!

save me from this dread and fear!”

But nobody answers, nobody cares

No sense in yelling, if nobody’s there



I wish I could cry, but my eyes wouldn't allow

I didn't know about this up until now

as the dust chokes me like the hands of death

Yet I still live, gasping for my breath

like a story that finished with lose ends

cuts like a knife with a wound to mend

one thousand nights with tears falling

with only one name that he is calling



in the middle of the dark all on his own

the memories flashes back in a mellow tone

with every beat that synch with his pain

a bitter sweet symphony inside remains



with all his might he lets it go

like a water fall he lets it flow

there's no easy way out from this predicament

nothing else will work.. not even a replacement



as time passed by he realized all this

all is worth it even if sometimes you miss

for the pain he feels will soon subside

and look for that happiness he once found inside



so he closed his eyes and said these words

"nothing else is more important in this world

but to keep pushing forward and to be free.

once I lived for you...  now I live for me"

Dear Love,



Although I am not sure if we have met, I never stop believing that someday we will be together. I am happy to say that I can’t’ wait to show you all of the songs and poetry that I have written just for you.  Just to warn you though, they’re all cheesy and corny, but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t write it from the heart. It’s just that everything that I have seen from movies, or heard from the radio or couples that I know had inspired me to write what I truly feel. It made me fall in love With “Love”, and I always wanted to feel this with someone and I’m hoping it’s you…. Some days I wondered if I ever came across you before. I wonder if you were that girl that served me ice cream when I was walking down by the lake, or could you be a stranger that accidentally bumped in to me as I was boarding my bus in the morning. Or maybe you’re somebody that I have known all my life but never really looked hard enough that you were right there and that you were everything that I have been searching for all along.  Whoever you are, I just want you to know that I’m looking forward to everything that we would go through together, like the time I would surprise you on your birthday, and got you that dress you’ve always wanted. Or those long walks on the beach which I honestly find as a big cliché, although I do enjoy it, (kind of like everything that I’m writing in this letter ^_^), or maybe you want to be adventurous and bike down a meandering path from a place out of town. Whatever gets your kicks, I’m always down for it, coz I know I would do anything just to get a smile from your face, or a laugh which is even better (I have a terrible sense of humor). I also look forward to the hard times, like you getting jealous from this new girl at work, or complaining that I don’t spend enough time for this relationship, saying that I’m always busy and I’m not doing anything to make it better. I just want to make that promise now that whatever happens, I know that you are the only one for me, and I would do anything to fix it, even if the situation that we would be in would be so grim and so out of rhyme, that the only thing that would make it better is to call it quits.  I would make it work out, trust me I will find a way.







I hope that you won’t find this letter strange (because I am), although then again I truly believe in voicing out my feelings, and right now I have no one to share these overwhelming thoughts that billowed within my heart and soul for the past 5 years of my single life and I really think that it should come out. I also believe that everyone has a soul mate and writing this letter which is directed to fate would lead me to the right person.  so I’m just putting it out there.  People can call me a looser. That is absolutely fine.  That makes the 2 of us if you have read up to this point (JOKES!!) But in all seriousness, I’d rather shame myself writing this than to stay silent and not letting the world  know what I have in mind for you and especially, for us. So whoever you are, I thank you, for spending time reading this letter from a person that is wishing to meet you soon.







With all My Heart,



K