I had only one mind
That was so timid
With no fear jealous and anger
As of now  there’s  always a hunger
to be with you……
And jealous  on people around you…

My mind has now become two
With a conflict in between them too
Each taking positions left and right
In a struggle to know wrong and right
Each with reasons so valid
And  firm on their views solid…

The war is for you
One mind wants  more of love to you
The other wants to stop loving you
As is too hurt by you ..

Wish both my minds unite together..
To what my heart wants altogether
To love you more than ever..
For I can live without you never

Try a bit to understand me
If no... let me know ...
For
Understanding is the base of love!!

I thought I could be happy
As you would make me happy
With you around me..
As your gift for me
On my special day...my birthday!!

But
As always

Loneliness accompanied me
In your place
With Wonderfully packed gift of
Disappointment!!

The days and nights
I enjoy each with you
Is a blessing from my Lord
And I believe it in solid...
But for his grace ...
You and me would still be
Unknown hearts to each other ...
He gave you to me ..
To care for you a lot
And vice versa too...
And for sure
he wants me to love you
to love me....

Small seedling planted in cultured soil of  The Chinmaya
With all morals and ethics well observed and absorbed roots
Has grown firm and strong with branches spread across the globe..
Like an evergreen umbrella tree providing shade and support
To the ones who stand under it, otherwise too.

The flowery shower of naturally pure wishes and blesses
From all branches of the giant awesome tree
Has added fragrance to my special day……
To remain as such for each day and every other day !!

By all means, I feel words at scarce  
To express my gratitude so sincere..
However,  My heart from depth expresses
Heart filled thankfulnesss…..
To all branches
Of this Mighty Evergreen Friendship tree….

Today is my day
Wishing myself this day
A very happy day
For today is my birthday  !!
Aug 12

With wings spread of their dreams
to Reach their dear ones
And breath the air afresh
of their land of birth
pursue their homely dreams
And enjoy their evenings
With relatives and neighbours
To blast their holidays in style
Of their willingness..
From their land of duty,
To land of their home,
the world they belong to
They boarded the flight...
From Dubai to Kozhikode
Which flew high to touch the sky
Along with the dreams of  happy souls it carried...
Finally..
Pulled  down to realise the dreams..
To touch the land...
But...
Destiny skidded...
Of dreams and the aircraft
Taking life of the pilot and his co....
Letting it go to rescue dependants in the flight...
And many lives lost  life,
The shattered dreams...
The  disfigured aircraft..
Members lost families
Parts lost bodies..
As ramnants of the flight..
Bringing tears of its thought!

Believe in your words
As it soothes my heart. .
Even if contradicts your deeds
That hurts my heart....

Love expressed by words
Melts my heart and drains my pain
Actions, again forms the pain
To hurt my heart in depth...

May be ...that's your love
May be that's what you love
To do with me..  
To hurt me in depth with your deeds!!!

But still. ...I love you like hell…...