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Feb 2015 The Demons Within

adopted

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

nactuyah

adopted

Adopted
isn't it a strange word?
It separates us from you?
it doesn't change the way I feel
I feel just like you
HUMAN
I may be adopted
but I was born like you
I still live like you
so why would you think I am unhappy

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

I Think

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

Everlasting

I Think

I'm a selfish creature. A human...
I can't blame myself for that,
But I'm a selfish creature with a choice,
To be selfish or unselfish,
And for my choice, I can blame myself.

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

Monday

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

amt

Monday

It's Monday.
Most people hate Mondays. Back to school, back to work, back to losing sleep. I don't particularly enjoy them either, but today is different. Today, I feel like this is the start of a new week. Last week was tough and all, but its all over now... Monday. We all want to curl back up under the covers in a cocoon of blankets. But Monday. All of last week's hardships are through. Gone. Over.

Today is Monday, November 12th, 2012.
There will never be another. Ever

Monday.
It's only a bad day if you make it one.

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

Muses of ours

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

Ady

Muses of ours

We've written you to immortality
among the stars in dark skies
trasncending life and death
despite giving us affliction
towards our one sided affection.

Look at us all write
to the Saints who ignore us
kneeling at the back of their altar
pleading to be heard of.

We don't mind the sadness and longing
you keep us sane, keep us writing.
Musing to our muses,
we adore the inspiration.

Look at us all writing
despite the fact they won't be reading.
Demonstrating our devotion
through our humble emotion.

Looks at us all write to them.

#love #unrequited #devotion #muses

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

If you really knew me

Feb 2015 The Demons Within

FeelMyFeelings

If you really knew me

If you really knew me,
you’d know that
I’m far from happy,
I can’t handle life,
I almost committed suicide twice,
What if 3rd time’s the charm

If you really knew me,
you’d know that,
I attract abuse,
Physical, Mental, Emotional
I’m strong though, I can take it.

If you really knew me,
you’d know that,
I can’t trust, I don’t trust,
Especially men,
They’re nothing but hurt.

If you really knew me,
you’d know that,
I hurt myself,
Cutting and Burning,
I wanna make the pain the same.

If you really knew me,
you’d know that,
I’m not that smart,
Yeah in school, That doesn’t count,
But I don’t really know what’s goes on around me,
I can’t handle it.

If you really knew me,
you’d know that,
I hate myself,
The way I look kills me,
I think I’m fat, always have,
Puking and starving, hospitalized.

If you really knew me,
you’d know that,
I’m not happy,
I’m not perfect,
I’m alone.