Tossed in a Storm

I fell in love with you
It was a simple choice.
Because I did not have a choice.
We do not choose
Who our heart falls in love with.
I am struck by your lightning.
I am Drowned in your Rain.
I am deafened by your thunder.
You are the heart of a hurricane.
And I am tossed
in the eye of your storm.

I hate myself for wanting you
You dominate my thoughts

I hate myself for trusting you
You hurt me just like they did

I hate myself for hanging on
Seeming so desperate to have you

I hate myself for loving you
You clearly never deserved me

I don’t know
How it started
Where it started
Why I started this

I don’t know
How to talk to you
What to talk about
Why I keep trying

I don’t know
How to end this
When to end this
Why I can’t end this