The antidote to my pain
To feel the bite the sting
To take in what is given
To understand the pain and how it's ridden
To acknowledge its present
To use it as a gift of healing essence
To send it love compassion hope
Cry it out
Sing its note
Send emotion to words I wrote
Share the content
Recycle hope

It came through pierced veils
Dark night
Broken heart
Pray to God
And now I feel alone

When we should feel connected
I
watch them in their slumber

If I could just be the space that lies between
each thought

each word

each memory

I wouldn't have to feel a thing
I would be free

She could reason with reason but
intuition is where she felt it

The boy loved so much
He was told to toughen up
He was shown how to be strong and punch
To release his feminine touch
He wanted to be loved so he changed to fit their ways
Day after day grew the crushing pain
The want to run away
Just to be himself
to
love
again

The collective dark night of the soul
We are going through a collective
dark night of the soul
In order to grow
Sometimes you go under
below
To merge through to the other side
The lotus grows from the earth's thick mud
It rises up to the surface through the waters subconscious to conscious layers
And it births and blooms out of the waters depth
It's floral scent of love and life
Is admired for all to see
We are all growing
from the
deep

Opening up to love means opening up to the possibility of abandonment and betrayal
I've realised I don't want to not try
Everything is a gamble
I just hurt so much sometimes my mind won't shut up
My body pains my heart aches my soul cries and the energy shakes
I've held myself over and over
Working through the feel
Understanding the reason from the experience that has been
Delving deeper into compassion and forgiveness
Bringing in the love I can
It starts inside and then it scales to others
I know we are all connected
I know love is the true source
I just drift off course and need redirecting
The compassion helps

**** Conformity!

Or should you be making love to it?

The beginning

I hope by wanting to be more positive
I'm not being a fool to myself

Am I good
Am I bad
You decide

Great Bear Courageous Strong
Spirit One to Worship
Let Feast and Devour by Natures Brave Beast
Accepting Fate
Initiate
Grow into your Skin
Bulk of Protection
Thick layer to Warm In
Mighty Power Fires Within
Rams Head Given
No haul to take
For those chains Bear Tears
down
to break
Rams Head High
Shaman Staff Steady to Shake
Be Still by the Fire and Soon you Wake
To come Face to Face Wielding Strong Heart of Brave

Part in sleep
Spilling out
Words of muttering something about being good enough and love
A recording to play to think of
Urge to open eyes as I vaguely recall
There in the room a red colour heart on the wall
Smiling as it fades
Was it there at all
Meditation next day gives an ******* thrall
Passion circulating within
Deeper than any touching skin
Universe what position you have me in
Felt so good
It couldn't be sin
Healing light to love
and passion
begin

Why do those that have lived through hell
Never can share the tale to tell
We keep it inside the trail we hide
Even if spoken out
It's read as metaphorical
We know
It's more
literal

This week I've felt intense emotions
At night they have made me shake
I feel the death of me
It's ego it never likes to leave
I see the images of harm in my minds eye
I watch as I let them drift bye bye
It's ok to be with
To cry
To release the pain held deep inside
I lay under a comforter and comforted even in my shaking resistant ways
I knew not all motions last and there is a deeper insight ready to emerge

The man with nothing
Still
says God Bless

Spent so much of life
dying inside
Maybe it's time to spend
remaining time
living

The moth drawn to the light repeatedly gets burned
Over time this moth has seen and experienced so learnt
Now it flies free and dancing in the dark
Pirouetting in open skies
Joyous frolicking lark
It finds its spark under stars
And the light of moon knows all too well
Moths wings rest and expand to the illuminant swell

I dreamt I was in a horror house
Each room a different torture fear and dread
The stairs a spiral it all came back to you there was no way out only to venture through
The creepy whispers began the ride
Stepping on from each curtain call
A man old and tall a vibe didn't much like or trust
I kept him close but up in front
Strange in manner and speech something sinister lurking dark underneath
He gave me some scissors can't recall why
He gave me the chills and kept asking for them back it felt off
Only once taken to the next level did I hand them back as I closed and held the door shut
A corridor rooms trimming the path
In one copulating couples frantic with lust as men lay chilling in  ice filled bath
A man with a blunt instrument and a heavy wielding axe
I need not know anymore organs wanted for guts and gore
Apparently victims decision to give it a go
Perhaps wrong choice of words as I left after hearing that
With side vision of bludgeon head whack attack
Not sure you could come back from that
Landing a lost women blind eyes dripping with blood I held her hand asked if anything to do if I could
Leading back to her room a grimace and laugh across her face she was able to see it was all a hoax but the ghost of true fate did awake and to that she met her match
Black mass taken as her deathly catch
Shifting shape to serpent came to me after that
I closed the door to her hiss
In I stood with a woman kinder now something lost some sorrow
felt somehow
Adolescence son they hadn't met in some time
Bound to the room with a presence that spoke but an object refusing to let go
We all spoke we made a plan to get out we all knew it's what we must do
Then I woke up to the sun

It's not from the outwardly stare
It's not from the clothes that you wear
It's not by the flattery of words that you share
It won't be by the way you undress what's outside
It's more than just the glaze from your eyes
It's the lock the key you turn to open up to inside
It's the depth that resides
It's the way you penetrate between and
beneath the lines
It's the touching of truth with the fears
and dreams most will try
hide
It's you
Your core
Your Strength
Vulnerabilities
Sensibilities
Wonders
Knowledge
Wisdom
Heart
Soul
+
Faith
You see
That's the only way you can get
inside
me

You can only go halfway into the darkest forest
                                ...then you are coming out the other side

I look to you
You look to me
We look to one another
Recognition of ourselves
We live within each other

If you're not busy laughing
You're busy not laughing

Remember these moments
Cause one day
They'll be gone

These waves ask me to write
High and low tides of life riding to the shore
Moon directing cresting curling course
Stars nightlights for the dark
Sun warming to the day
Deep as the ocean swells and bed sometimes so far away
Releasing to the elements earths most humble way
A raft upon a current
Drift with waters sway

The striving man
Reaching for everything
Wanting for nothing

The tree it's seen the seasons
The changing shifts and falls
The tree it's been still standing sturdy strong and tall
The tree has bared witness to the scying calls
The tree it's held position with the crying skies
The tree it has its moments to bloom to shed for leaves to
drop
to
die
The tree it stands as monument to each battle cry
The tree it goes on growing ever nearer to the sky

They tried to love me /  but I always put a barrier in the way

My tribe are the family I've made my own
They are the ones that have been by my side
In the lowest of times
In the stormiest of tides
Not many I've let in or many that see me right
But true to words they love and care
Thicker than blood
- A pact we'll share

I don't deserve to be picked on anymore
I don't deserve the bullying from another
You try to help others but some just use it as a small minded game
I know we can be a part in form of another but right now it doesn't feel the same

Unlearn all you have ever learnt and find out that there is so much more to learn and unlearn
Does the yearning ever cease
Do we just accept not to know
Is it best for all
Is bad evil
Is good Godly
For what and whom is cast good or bad
When the two combine is balance restored
Or will one win over the other
But why would good fight
Is there a good fight
Are we fighting it

Sometimes the words come from another place and through me and out  
Sometimes they come from the ego
This is from the ego
Or is it?

Rising above the daily dread
Over the hedge
Into pure spirit of the high

First
place order

Images spring to mind
Mine or another's
Linked and synced
Sisters
Brothers
Passions
&
Lovers

Set your thoughts adrift
Build them onto Viking ship
Let them float away....
As fire burns to ash
Sink into depths of sea
Water cleanse with purity
Fall heavenly asleep
Rest among the deep
Tranquility and peace
Take my thoughtful place

I thought I was punished for seeing such dark
I don't know, maybe I am
But the more I've learnt and the more I saw
I think it's more a preparation rapport  
Knowing the dark to find such light
To be aware of struggling battle but have peace
with good intent in mind to right

Morning
Noon to night
That's how much I think about you
All the time

In one time you may live
In another you can die
Death scene by my bed tells a tale that life can change or align
If you perish now do you or some part seep into parallel line

I wish for the world to be happy
To know peace of mind
To care for one another
...
behind
Leave the worries

In the heartache
In the loss
In the tears
In the gain
In the depression
In the wounds
In the joy
In the blame
In the judgement
In the knowing
In the guessing game
In the hurt
In the distance
In the wrong
In the right
In the silly
In the clever
In the dark
In the light
In the fear
In the fright
In the courage
In the brave
In the naughty
In the well behaved
In the struggle
In the failed
In the hollow
In the nailed
In the lonely
In the guided
In the seeing
In the blinded
In the angelic
In the devilish
In the amazing
In the dishevelled
In the moral
In the mistakes
In the real
In the fake
In the warmth
In the cold
In the happy
In the oh no!!!
In the patient
In the hurry
In the bliss
In the worry
In the ugly
In the pretty
In the beautiful
In the witty
In the confidence
In the vulnerability
In the shame
In the pity
I have loved my self
through
it
all

In our darkness we are met with bleak
Them shadows taunt and haunt
We fear them
Each time shrieking in the dark
Over time we see but feel more accustomed to, we stay in center line or send them shadows love
New shadows emerge we feel, fear, we accept we purge again sending love when we may
The view becomes clearer it transforms to a mirror
The image reflects our inner beliefs and grievances
Everything that annoys you can be found in me and mirror reverse too
Everything that I treasure is within my sanctum my jewels are worn too within the mirror starer
We share this same space
Though you have to look closely at times
My distaste dislike love compassion empathy apathy security insecurity gift grievances are all mine and yours on similar line
We together carry share lift unburden and shed the load each time
Then to the next reflector
To see deeper and clearer
To mirror more love
acceptance and compassion

I think so much
It drives me sane

I'm not even sure they know the pain they caused
Resentment built up inside
Was it ego shame pity or pride
Then set up a meeting to look through their eyes
Witness to the life cycle they live and try to hide
To see from another side opened up a box of compassion to wipe up the releasing tears that cried
Clearer understanding
of the why

After each dark night
Comes
the
dawn
A time for grieved soul
A time to be
reborn

As I lay in night
Your light guided me deep
You threw your almighty arms around me
Holding strong as the dark did creep
My eyes viewed the strangest things
My heart felt each beat
We flew together in dreams
This my soul
will
keep

I am in the hurricane
Dancing Dancing once again
Dancing my steps when the thunder roars
Smashing the waves from bashing shores
Taking a bow
as the
storm applauds

Clearing    clawing   sound

Stalking   prowling    round
Kitty likes to PURRR!!..
Stroke flaming primal fur
Do You think you can get closer??
Or will I get my meal first?
Paws
for thought

It's just a tiger claws

Tiger Tiger your strips are fierce

There glow of amber the black mark pierce

Your courage copious you circle the fears

Then time is right

You strike

Devour obstacles sears

Walk your path with majesty willpower grace fortitude for all is

not as it instantly appears

There's time for change
and
there's time to stand in your own power