We will all get
home
in time

I had a dream last night
I met a man
Who liked me for me
The awkward things I said
The words that just pop out my head
He just liked me for me

I've been here before
The past tells me so
The words show the way for heart and the knows
Some times the minutes move quick
Other times seem to stick
Some moments there's no time at all
World's merge mix spin
Then to wake as I fall..
To once again
Begin

Reading about feet washing and at the meaning of Jesus and humility - wondered from the last piece poetry
Car outside parks up playing Angels " When I'm feeling weak And my pain walks down a one way street I look above and I know I'll always be blessed with love And as the feeling grows She breathes flesh to my bones And when love is dead I'm loving angels instead And through it all she offers me protection A lot of love and affection Whether I'm right or wrong And down the waterfall Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me When I come to call she won't forsake me I'm loving Angels instead
That's the lyrics that were met
Maybe there's a message in that
or could be in my head

All this
seeking
learning
looking
Can make your eyes sore
No wonder
we have one more

Soul and body sinking
Tired
Done

When you shine a light on the darkness you see it all becomes
  clear
Our layers
Conditioning
Thoughts
Beliefs
Behaviors
Actions
Fears

The past always tries to pull us back
Not to say we may not have to look
Though it reads over and over again and writes our present
book
The future is not certain
We can hold faith in this moment
&
rest in Divine love
+

Feeling sick in bed
So afternoon of rest
Tea and cake in bed
Guided meditations for the head
Sleep to loosen bodies tight tread
I look rough and face has zits
No makeup face today
Sent out love and receive my own internally
I wasn't perfect anyway and that's ok
Each unique in their own blessed way
Cake was nice
Tea was sweeet :-D
Waheyyy!!!

Time and space co-exist

Time

Space

Nothing   's missed

Together on the sands
Looking out
to the
sea
Present in company
Future became our reality

Together we'll walk in fields of gold
Dive into
the
fiery
depths
To wake unto it's slumber

The future is going to be brighter
The future will be full of synergy
Working together to create a positive
healthy energy
I hope you can come along too
Just believe it to be true
You have the talents and heart
to do what you want to do
May your good thoughts
uplift
and
guide
you
through

Eyes softly flicker to the static dancing show
Drifting of slumber with falling snow

You left
I wasn't ready
Were you ready to say..
goodbye
Now
separate in physical form
Connected
by
our
hearts

Head tingles
when Divine calls
Hairs antenna
as etheric ariel
befalls

Ceiling above shifts and moves
Dreams speaking unspoken words
Lift and pull rest and waking lull
Seen mesh with unseen
Wave length unknown
Lights out
Off we go. .

Spirit presence
Animal instinct
Come to the senses
Full of wisdom
Guiding to which way to go
Your character demeanour tales the show
Life in nature
Quick to grow
Skies of open
Earth below
Thank you
Your gift
Insightful

Skin peeled back
Organs rearranged
Stirred
Heart stabbed
Pain in leg
Arm
Head
Back
Ailments ease
Liquid seeping ears
Surrendering to up high
Releasing fears
Let it be
Let it be
Lessen the structured grip
of outwardly
Focus
to
light
energy

My most devoted friends are those I've never met

The more you grow
The easier it is to see the ones that are trying to pull you down
I hope they find the security they need to put away their childish weapons

I want to love
like I once felt love
              But something
stops me
in my
tracks.  
Is it
       pride
fear
uncertainty
         wisdom
Am I just too wise to let myself
            fall
and
          plummet
like a train
                            derailed
                               coming off course
Know too much now
I can love
but not like before
My heart beats steady
              without the applause
Am I too scared to set off from the station
                               Standing      
too far back          
                 from loco
motives
           moving
doors

Opening the channels
Flowing
through the grid
Pumping up the pressure
as
earthing ever
dig
Signals from
the heart
Electric from the touch
Amplify the senses
Compounded form the rush

Heart
Beats
Pounds
Intense
Brings back
to
breath and essence

Get
the *****
Going on a treasure hunt
To find the treasures that are buried inside

I've done it all to my self so many times
I hurt my self
How many times do I have to come to realise
I want to let it go
I want to treat my self with these kinder eyes
Hold my self in love

Butterfly
on flowers
Stag on the grass
Lion through tree clearing
Faun Fey dancing straight in front around
Light bodies circle forest ground
Two beings orange and blue
Embracing in arms
Orange was me Blue was you
Beaming up to the sky in the light
Drumming beats
At exits path
Nature
of
Shamans
craft

Tree over river
Reflections
to
me
Watch
as branches sway

Magic
blends
with those
who
believe

Take your pain
Aim it at
me
Some days
I may return
On those days I still have more to learn

Every day those words were unleashed
Like wild wolves hungry to sink their teeth
I grew tired of the chase, the capture
Was it really me they bloodlusted after?

Words tore me open!
Ripped me apart!
Dug at my soul!
Devoured my heart

Watch as I SCREAMMMMMM..............
TERROR INVADES
AS THE BLOOD SEETHES AND SPILLS DEEP FROM MY VEINS

Body in tatters
Strewn on the ground
Hallowed out shell
No life to be found

Time changes everything
My body decays
Food for the insects
Vultures take their meaty pick
From bone to ashes
The ground becomes thick

On the winds I will blow and
on the soil I will grow
No pain no more as we reap the seeds that are sown
From darkness the fallen will rise high to the skies
Greater than was ever known before,
in our eyes

It's so much easier to heal online because of the anxiety and empathy
It gets in the way
you see

I live in the divide between dark and light
I am split and joined by the bind
Oscillating lines
Some times merging with confusion
At other times nothing
Silence
The rest and the fears can pull us through
Dark can be a background to view
Showing us what effects have given us drive to do
That which has sent our minds askew
Pushing us into the blue
Light shining on the simplest grain
Highlighting our pleasures and pain
We are but two
Though we are one
Part of the trinity

My eyes look to the stars
My soul basks in the sun
My spirit tunes in nature
My love returns more fully to thy own heart
I send it out
Though I feel a need to release
the
pettiness
of the world

You are loved
You are love
Your inner spirit knows this all too well
Bring yourself back to love
Let's make a daisy chain
Daisies represent true love
We are all daisies
Let's bloom
From
within
And share
to those
we love and care for you
And grow to the whole of humanity

For better or worse
In sickness and in health
I vow to walk beside myself

If I try and trust
At least I'm trying
You can't fully when you have learnt to be discerning
You've had to from where you have been

I cried today
I let the floods fall out down my face
I felt no disgrace
The fear had been there year after year
I don't remember it not
The times of not most high intent
I don't know what truth and trust really meant
The always on alert
Watching
Observing
Being a version of myself that at times felt uncomfortable to be
I cried and I accepted it
Completely

I've taken so much more than I can bare
I let you into my life again
I gave you a chance to do it all differently
I gave you compassion and understanding for your difficult time
I made you laugh
I made meditations to help clear your mind and heal your heart
But you didn't want to know
Bit by bit truth came to unravel
The lying eyes you've been hiding behind
Playing with my heart my love my health my life for a second time
I've been feeling like I'm on a merry go round
A rollercoaster ride
And I feel sick now
I've watched as you vented your anger towards another and still tried to see your side
And now you show me all your actions been a lie
You wanted her
The one you went to after you broke my heart the first time
The years I spent healing myself
And when I'm just getting better you think it's ok to come in and just say hi
And pick me up when I made peace with the goodbye
Now everyone is bad in your eyes
When I was struggling need a supportive line
You told me you still want her
Am I just a play thing with no shine
Not to me I'm not
Worth so much more than you will ever know

It's hard to love more when you feel less
Why do we grow when we're dying
How do we begin for soul to be blessed when all around us see such dark fear and bitterness
But we do

Maybe in death...
.....we start flying......

Speaking your mind thoughts feelings and expectations never comes easy but it isn't easy to just keep going unhappy without speaking your truth
Those that appreciate you will understand
Those that don't ...
Well ...
How much did they care?

Always looking to myself as worthless
Struggle to feel deserving
Couldn't look to the good
I was swerving
Weakness became my strength
Shrinking from the light
Hidden comfort in the dark
Feeding on fearful appetite
Worried to not get it right
Now I fail all the time
I try at least to fight
for the step into peace
and the calm in my mind

I'm not trying to
let go of you
I'm just trying
to live

I feel it a pressure on my leg
Seems like the dog
But I know he's lying in his bed
Leg goes numb
Not again!
Trying to take hold
So I can't move or speak
I see myself turning over and call out but it's not how it is
I'm stuck still as I am
All will to liberate
Lucky this time caught it early
Grip loosens slowly
Nightmare in someone else's palm
Release for now
Present keep calm

Pink tulips growing
in my mind
I feel it
in my
heart

All is well
All is well
Spirit tells me time and time again
I must remember to listen