The ants
                      are crawling

                                          on this screen

hoping like me

                                                to find the inside

                       of this light

Life is good,
But the 3rd act is a shitshow.

we play the waiting game
every day it seems
waiting for you to get better
waiting for you to become the mother
waiting for you to make a life that i fit into

i’m sick of being an extra piece
that can so easily be forgotten
or swept under the rug like
dirt

so i’m sorry for being okay enough to let go
when i wanted you to hold me
i’ve waited long enough
spent my entire life in line
now i’m just tired

चला जाता है अतीत
यादों में फिर भी बना है रहता
भविष्य का नहीं है पता
फिर भी यह जीने नहीं देता
वर्तमान है जीवन का भाग्य विधाता
इसका उपयोग करना नहीं आता
बिना दृढ़ निश्चय के
संबल इसको बना नहीं पाता
जीवन की इस भूलभुलैया में
इतनी सी बात मैं समझ नहीं पाता।

naaawa sa mga panget
galit sa gwapo

i. i will no longer see people for how they may benefit me

ii. i will no longer go out of my way to destroy the relationships that i cherish
a. for the exclusive purpose of revitalizing my opinion on another relationship far beyond repair

iii. i will no longer treat my old friends like ****

iv. i will no longer watch my grandmother wade through electric bills

v. i will slap myself, berate myself, render separate from myself my knuckles and wrist, anything so i can come to my senses and realize my current being
a. i will no longer "feel detached" or "depersonalized"
- i will no longer make excuses that i thus live off of

vi. i will no longer live through another person

vii. i will no longer seek to cut the horns ive grown since birth

I CAME FOR SOME NETFLIX
HE CAME FOR THE NECK *****