I wish I could explain
The tide
Of pain,
That swept aside
The spark of youth
Burning bright
It dimmed the truth.
A darkness
Consuming hope and care
Leaving only hate,
Despair.
A splinter
Buried in my skin
Rotting all that's good
Within.
Now what remains
Is just a husk,
Emptiness
from dawn to dusk.
I wish I could explain
This fate
But even now
It's just too late.

So what?,.
So you lied to me.
You might have tried to spare my feelings?
Maybe...  A way to be polite...  
I know.  
I've done it myself.
But then you look me in the eye...
Girl that was over the top!
Deceitful and ugly
....  Goodbye

Be proud of yourself. Remember the nights you crumbled under the weight of your pain, and the mornings you fought to open your eyes, and won. Remember how you put yourself back together, brick by brick; remember the ache in your shoulders as you laid each stone. Remember that life is often the more difficult choice, and that it takes a special kind of bravery to choose it anyway

THIS IS WHAT I AM
    
    I can't choose
    what to be
    see me
    in my soul's nakedness
    my heart's transparency
    
   if you don't see
   anything that's worthy
   walk away,  instantly
   lest you end in misery

   life is all about
   to be
   or not to be
   verily
   'no' is often
   the best policy
   'yes' said too readily
   has ruined
   so many
   and robbed them
   of their right to be happy

   I can't be
   that someone
   you want to see
   (perhaps in your maiden-fantasy
    you hoped for a knight in shining armour
    but life is not a fairy story-
   no Camelot, I am too ordinary)
  
    think ten times
    before saying 'yes'
    
    it takes only a second
    to say 'no'
    that might be (for you dear sake)
   the best way to go