"If everything
you thought you knew
makes your life unbearable
would you change?"*

A cool spring morning,
trees explode
with life and color.

I sit and meditate.

Everything I have
ever been,
everyone I have
ever known,
has brought me
to this exact
perfect moment.

Sitting with
this new life,
with my new life,
among these new leaves
and blossoms,
I know I will change
and remain the same.

Sure of nothing
and everything.

Sitting exactly
in this right place,
sitting exactly

where I am.

  ~mce

You make me want
to be more:

An unlikely knight
unpacking my shining armor,
smiling at dragons
as yet unslain,

fearless before your eyes.

Is perception a form of injustice?

this picture laid so gently across
the landscape i once called my home
pieced together
sticks and stones
crookedly sewn
none of it makes sense to me
anymore
nothing left to do but stare
half admiration, half *******
whatever's left i guess
i choose to ignore
i set fire to the destruction
reversing the effects
of everything that i've done.
and i smile.
there's beauty in this captivity
when the raindrops hit
the wooden frame
a midst the flames
this smoke, these clouds
keep my soul safe
and i smile.
the anchorage i feel
to this sinking ship
to these rotting trees
remains a secret
remains unchanged
it is here my mind
decides to wander
and i'll never tell
i will never share
i will never tear
apart my seams
and it may burn
and i may find it
hard to breathe
but i believe
that pain is the most
purest form of payment
and i am due
to pay my rent
so let it burn and let it scratch
and let it rise from this ***** ash
create a mess, destroy what's left
my eyes are full
as are my lungs
and i smile.
it is here, it is right here
and i have never
felt so alive, and so alone.

when and at what point did my childhood end?

some days you're with your friends screaming along to your new favorite song ******* up the words but enjoying it and feeling like you could cry or die or just make pies all day
and some days it's eleven o clock and you're alone in the Applebees parking lot smoking a cigarette on the verge of tears but you won't cry because it's not exactly sad it's just ****** up and nothing is like the movies anymore.