Jolene Perron

Jolene Perron Nov 2010

Goodbye

I'm done, I'm done,
I'm screaming to the sky.
It's over, I'm finished,
my final goodbye.

I wish there was,
another way but.
It's over, I'm done,
enough is enough.

My paradise so gone,
far away disappeared.
This place I'm in,
is everything I've feared.

I'm gone, I'm gone,
and I'm not coming back.
I'm changing, I'm growing,
I'm dieing in this hole so black.

I'm sinking, I'm fading,
and I'm falling away.
Do you think you could,
for once maybe save.

This little lost girl,
so confused and yet.
Trying to find meanings,
in things not meant.

The razor, the blood,
dripping scarlet red.
As she lays, fading,
curled up on the bed.

The world fading,
as she falls into the black.
This is my final goodbye,
and I'm not coming back.

Jolene Perron Nov 2010

Catch Me While You're Holding Her

I think that you would be surprised,
how much I think about you.
If you only knew just what I thought about,
you'd be really amazed how crazy I am about you.
When you hold me in your arms,
my entire world stands still.
My everything is right,
my everything is standing before me.
Big blue eyes staring back at me,
so beautiful and right.
Your touch is gentle and warm,
taking away all my pain.
You know just how to hold me,
just how to soothe me.
I don't understand how I missed,
I didn't know for years.
But now here we are in a moment,
everything stands still.

But
But her.
That girl.
The one you're with.
What about her?

You don't want to be with her,
and everything seems so complicated.
But I don't know, sweetie,
just how long I can stand.|
To share you, with her,
to have you go between.
I've come to be 'the other woman',
someone I've avoided till now.
And hunny, I wish you knew,
just how I felt about this whole ordeal.

I'm falling,
falling quickly,
falling fast,
but can you catch me,
while you're holding her?

Jolene Perron Nov 2010

Morning Light, I'm Falling For You

The light of morning,
moving slowly across your face,
The blue in the sky matching your eyes,
your arms wrapped around me.
I lay next to you,
breathing in everything you are,
Falling into you deeper, deeper,
everything right, everything makes sense.
This moment all I've waited for,
years I've only dreamed,
And here, I swear, I'm dreaming,
holding you, holding me.
Your smile wide across your face,
you're warming my heart,
The butterflies spin and spiral,
and I'm falling.
I can't stop smiling now,
you've got me in the air,
And when your lips touch mine,
my heart beats out of my chest.
Everything is right,
everything makes sense,
I'm falling for you,
catch me if you can ...

Jolene Perron Nov 2010

Give Me A Reason

Your eyes your smile,
your age and mine.
Your touch, your lips,
my undying mind.

My thoughts, my words,
living a fairytale.
The butterflies, the heat,
this seems so unreal.

Three years ago,
never would I have imagined.
We'd end up this way,
my heart started to blacken.

But you pulled me in close,
for that longed for kiss.
Your embrace, your smile,
and everything I've missed.

Did you know while you were gone,
I thought about you?
Your music, your voice,
the emotions you pursued.

But after all that's happened,
things you don't know yet.
All the things that stress me,
over which I've wept.

These things, well darling,
they have me terrified.
I'm so scared to just let go,
let you into my mind.

Give me a reason,
say to me some words.
Something no one else knows,
something to heal the hurt.

The age, the history,
the touch, the kiss.
Everything I want,
you're everything I miss.

I'm scared, I'm crying,
give me a reason please.
To let you in my heart,
I'm down here on my knees ...

Jolene Perron Nov 2010

Spiraling Addiction

This need, this want,
everything inside.
A past, my present,
it is all mine.

The spiral, the circle,
falling within.
Escape, escape,
the place I'm in.

It's so easy right now,
to just go back.
Give into the needs,
the confidence I lack.

To destroy completely,
a years work so far.
I've been clean, but,
it's getting harder and harder.

The blade, the skin,
sometimes just seem one.
So easy to go back,
the battle is never won.

When stress builds up,
when life gets hard.
It's three steps back.
and only one forward.

It's easy, it's simple,
I want to be free...
but giving in is simple,
like one...
two...
three....

Jolene Perron Nov 2010

Here with You

The world stands still,
when you look at me like that.
And all I feel is passion,
no more confidence I lack.

Everything is paused,
my world on hold.
When you hold me in your arms,
the cards begin to fold.

Everything is right,
nothing is wrong.
This can't last forever,
not very long.

But as long as we are here,
in this moment together.
I just feel right,
I'm here forever.

Jolene Perron Nov 2010

Here's to Lessons

I'm sitting down here,
I'm sinking, falling, feeling.
I'm surrounded here,
but I feel lonely and concealing.

They don't understand,
this feeling, those thoughts.
They don't see me,
and how I'm getting lost.

It's hard to understand,
I know this to be true.
Not only have I gone through it,
but I saw it happen to you.

Sometimes when you're looking,
from the outside in.
You blame yourself for not realizing,
the hurt and anger within.

But when you're there,
in that situation at that time.
You don't understand your feelings,
how can they be mine?

I look back on these feelings,
on these times in life.
When all I felt was sadness,
the hurt and anger and strife.

And now I really know,
that all you can do is learn.
From the happiness, sadness,
each and every burn.

Life is filled with lessons,
anf here I raise my glass.
I proudly love me for me,
long time, at last.