I'll keep you in a bottle
my little light, my little light,
Maybe if i overdose on you,
I'll be alright, I'll be alright

Cause my head's not
a fine place to live in,
it's your arms
I'd rather be in,

I'm a wooden log
and my mind's a campfire,
Soon i will be gone,
soon the deed will be done,
So hold me tight,
I'm sorry if I keep you up tonight,
but I cannot fight

My monsters sit at a table,
planning my execution;
And I don't know how much
you could harm me,
but you're the one who
holds a leash on my emotions,

So hold me tight,
**I'm sorry if I keep you up tonight.

I call her the shadow dancer,
punished with hope..
She twirls with reflections,
and shadows on her broken feet..
She struggles to remain beautiful,
to perpetuate the stereotype..
She leaps, weightless into the heavy air,
pointed broken feet, hiding the pain..
Odessa, the swan in her lake,
flying, oblivious....

Craving sustenance
the ones and zeroes
are all but fickle
Yet so easily forgotten.
Forgetting I held on
The blue strings
Woven in the air
Connected me and you
And I swore I would never
And I swore forever.
There you were,
Forgetting..

Love you in a way
You can't possibly understand
Impermanent like an artist's charcoal
Always present always changing shape
Staining and marring, yet making clear
That which you think but cannot say
And I find comfort in the cryptic
If you can find your way through
I'll see you on the other side

The world was running
From its point of view
While I closed my eyes
To myself and focused
On all the people I could be
Why pick one person
When you can be everyone?
Except everyone becomes
The person that you are
And like the earth
You're spinning on an axis
Chasing your tail
Moving so fast
The stars aren't points
they blur into sharp lines
Just like photographs
Your shutter was open too long
And you we're double exposed..
Everyone shows on your no one

I write sometimes
Of the monster I've become
And there
in the highway of pages
I find comfort
In counting mile markers
Each marking how far I fall
Setting sail for denial
Fill my sails with a liar's breath..
In the morning when I wake,
I'll rub a blind man's sleep from my eyes
Reciting a hypocrite's creed
Believing it..

Ask yourself
In every breath
In the silence between thoughts
In the whisper before the fear died
When your heart beat flutters
like the wings of a bird
before it takes flight
............................
Do you believe?

Thoughts never made it to my hands
Should have never taken the chance
Now I'm on a one way road
Can't stop to shed the load
And looking back, it all seems to shrink
Yet I'm stuck, somewhere in between..

Almost is my favourite place to be
Between a rock and a warm place
Won't let them all know me
It's called defensible space
Except for one, if only he could hold me..

But distance isn't measured
in meters with you
And time, well seconds and hours never suited you
your name's a spell I utter quite often
One more day, keep my doors open..

Have you ever looked at a person
And known that's who you'd love
And never hold back?
When I saw you I knew
Time was a useless construct...
And right now,
Almost is my favourite place to be..

In secret from afar
They'd all swear I'd differ
In everyway, everyday..
The ink stains all these thoughts
Like hope and it's all for naught
And the swirl of the eddy
That was your written name
Poisons what holds me steady
And I'm drunk on the fame
Of being an idea
Some day soon
I'd be all you hold dear
All in secret from afar
'Cause you're all that's fair
And I'm all that's forbidden..
I couldn't bear to have you beaten
By the lies of my tongue
And my fickle heart..