EVERYDAY NEW CHALLENGE
EVERYDAY NEW PAIN
EVERYDAY I GET HURT
BUT I CAN ONLY PRETEND
PEOPLE KILLING ME WITH THEIR WORDS AND WHAT I CAN SHOW THEM IS A SMILE. HAHAHAH

A FAKE SMILE.
WHICH COVER MY PAIN. like no one do.

I had very
Strong relationships

With really
Weak people around me.......

SO WHAT!!!?

She gave me PAIN....

Her name wasn’t
SMILE...

I WAS FINDING LOVE IN OUR
FRIENDSHIP

AND SHE SAID:
OUR LOVE IS JUST A
FRIENDSHIP

There is no evidence,
Of the crime
She told me that
i did.....

But still
I was ready to
Surrender.

she said: "Your smile is what I adore.",
You smiled, and it all started,
"Im not happy anymore!",
So easy, you screamed and it all ended.

Selfish and one-sided,  
That's your kind of love,
Your kind of love,
Is not what I wanted.



I replied: Yes, i am selfish
just because when i saw that your sad,
i always cry,

yes, i am mean
just beacause when you smile,
it make my day

and its one-sided because,
you never do the same
which i expected from you and

it's not easy to scream
i scream thousands of time
but you can't even hear it once.

  But remember
"LOVE IS ALWAYS ONE-SIDED"
  I am selfish because
  ‎you never do the same
  ‎whatever i expect from you
  ‎and now am mean because
  ‎because no-one cares

  Thats why its one-sided
  ‎but you easily say that
  ‎"your kind of love
  ‎ is not what i want"

I don know her
Name,
But yah
I call her
My love.

DEATH.
I DONT WANT IT YET
I DONT WANT TO  DIE

BUT

I AM GLAD BECAUSE
I DIE FOR YOU
EVERYDAY.

Its
just
Time...
That
day
I was
ready
To die
For
You,

And now...

I am
Dying
Without
You

Once you fall down,
No one will come to
Pick you up...

But,

If you go a bit higher,
Everyone will try there best,
To grab you down.

Why when we met a stranger I feel like know them from years
Why some persons are just like our shadows
Why some new relationships feels like so old
Thousands years ago the population of
This world Is 1 billion I guess
But after years were finally about to 7 billion

Some said that there is only one soul before
And we are billions of pieces of that soul
Maybe that’s why sometimes when we met a stranger
We feel that we’re already in a relationship without even meeting
Just like that stranger is one of our part
Because I think we both went far away when that
Thousands pieces of one soul got spreaded in this world

I met them in an unknown city
It feels like we just met and became friends
Maybe not friends but best friends
Our hobbies, likes, dislikes even though our habits are same

I love music and they sing so good
I love to eat and they cook so good
It feels like they have medicine of every wound
Well, I don’t believe “love at first sight” but
Sometimes this “connection” is adorable

From childhood we are use to those happy endings
But sometimes our endings just went on a crossroads and stop on it
There is peace when I met them, a feeling when I saw them
My heart became like a flower
Now I have freedom to  feel the wind and sunlight
And no fear that, that flower will grow or not

But now I have to go far
But even thinking about that how will I say that one “goodbye” its killing me a lot
At my last night in that city we both went on a long drive
Those unknown streets of that city like were finding something on it
Maybe were finding words to say what’s in our hearts
If not that then were finding words to say that “goodbye”

We both were talking bout our lives but then
They turn there car and went on a street were no voices no light
Only us and its like those thousands of stars are staring on us and
The moon is giving us new hope of love and life
They turn and look at me and said
“you know this is the only place were skylights are brighter then this land”

We both are looking at that beautiful sky
Those thousands of starts and one moon
That fours eyes and two hearts
We both don’t know the silence of that night turned into
A loud morning
.
.
Now its my time to leave
.
.
I know it in this short days in this few time
The way I felt I can never felt like that again
But our road of our lives were different
No reason but I want them to stay with me
But we both promised that “we will keep in touch”

My friends sometimes love,  hope, faith cant be fulfill
But when you feel that every moment that’s more important
The place of that person or that memory its in your hearts
And sometimes just because of the internet
They send me there peaceful voice to me and
I send them some of my poetries.

SHE WAS TOO CLOSE
YET SOO FAR

WE  SHARE  
PAIN BUT NOT PROBLEMS

WE SHARE THINGS
BUT NOT HEART

SHES SO CLOSE TO ME
BUT I WAS FAR

SHE IS HAPPY AND
I WAS SAD
BECAUSE SHE CAN STILL
SMILE WITHOUT ME

People said "Everything happens for a reason".
But i have never get the answer "why do she broke my heart without any reason"?

I cried, heart is bleeding with pain
But i have never get the answer of my
Question "where do all the broken hearts went"?

I will be okay, i will forgot you
Maybe after some days, monthes or years
And i hope when we will meet again
I hope yoy can love me in that way
Or hopefully i have already forgot you

Maybe then i will get my answer "where do all the broken hearts went"?
But that time it will be too late.

MY LOUD NOISE IN THIS SILENT NIGHT
I WANT TO PLAY, I WANT TO FEEL THE JOY
BUT THE NOISE OF THE DAY BOTHER ME AROUND

I GOT LOCKED IN THE PRISON OF THE NOISE
WHERE EVERYONE IS SHOUTING
NO CARE AND NO LOVE ANYMORE

I WANT TO LEAVE START MY LIFE AGAIN
BUT UNFORTUNATELY I CAN’T
BECAUSE AM LOCKED IN THE PRISON OF THE NOISE
NO MAJORITY AND NO LOVE

CAN SOMEONE HEAR ME?
WHEN AM SHOUTING AT THESE DARK NIGHTS
CAN SOMEONE HEAR THE LOUDNESS OF MY SILENCE?
BUT NOW NO ONE TO LISTEN AND NO MORE TO HUG

THESE NOISES HAD ALREADY BOTHER ME NOW
THESE NOISES ARE LIKE HELL
EVEN THO I CLOSE MY EARS AND PLAY MUSIC LOUDLY
NOTHING HAPPEN

I JUST NEED HELP
I FEEL LIKE HELL HERE

FEELINGS NEVER FADE
MEMORIES
ITS JUST THE TIME WHO
HEAL US

I want to say somthing
But i can't say
I feel something when am with you
But i can't explain
HONESTLY, with you
Every hour just spend like a minute
But without you my love
Every minute is an hour.

a brother who care
But he never show

Who fight with you
Then always put smile on your face

Who says your not my sister
But always, be their for you.

ONE THE FIRST TIME WHEN THEY BOTH MET
HE LIKE HER AND SHE LIKES HIM
AND IF YOUR CALLING THIS
“FIRST SIGHT LOVE” THEN MAYBE YOUR WRONG
BECAUSE AT THE FIRST SIGHT WE LIKE ANTIC THINGS TOO
BUT WE JUST PUT THOSE THINGS AT HOME JUST AS A
“SHOWPIECE”.

JUST BECAUSE YOU BOTH TALK EVERY NIGHT
EVERY TIME AND IF YOU CALL THIS “LOVE”
THEN MAYBE YOUR WRONG
BECAUSE JUST BECAUSE OF THE LONELYNESS
TWO STRANGER CAN TALK TOO

IF SHE SAW A BOY AND HOLD YOUR HAND
AND WHEN YOU SAW A GIRL AND HE HOLD HER HAND
AND YOUR CALLING THIS “CUTE JEALOUSY” AS LOVE
THEN MAYBE YOUR WRONG
BECAUSE WE KEEP BIRDS JUST TO PUT THEM IN A CAGE
NOT TO LET THEM FLY AWAY

AND NOW IF THEY’RE BOTH ABLE TO UNDERSTAND EACH
OTHERS FEELINGS THEN YOU CALLING THIS LOVE
MAYBE YOUR WRONG
BECAUSE WHEN TWO BEGGARS ARE HUNGRY
THEY BOTH CAN FEEL THEY’RE EMPTY STOMACH
BUT THEY CAN GIVE FOOD TO EAT YOU



IF YOUR CELEBRATING YOUR ANNIVERSARY EVERY MONTH
AND YOUR CALLING THIS “LOVE”
THEN MAYBE YOUR WRONG BECAUSE
LOVE NEVER GIVES A DATE TO EXPLAIN YOUR LOVE
IT JUST HAPPENS

IF SHE IS PART OF HIS ALL INSTA AND SNAP STORIES
AND YOUR CALLING THIS LOVE THEN MAYBE YOUR WRONG
BECAUSE YOU CANT LIVE LIFE WITH FILTERS AND SAVE THEM
WE JUST LIVE IT IN THAT TIME,  ON THOSE SPECIAL MOMENTS

BUT….

BEFORE TOUCHING HER BODY YOU TOUCH HER SOUL,
IF SHE SHOWS ALL HER HAPPINESS AND SADNESS,
BEFORE SHE GET NAKED, YOU NAKED YOUR ALL YOUR FEARS,
IF HER EACH ONE TEAR FELL ON YOUR SHOULDER,
AND SHE IS THE REASON OF YOUR SMILE,

THEN MAYBE, NOT MAYBE

IT IS LOVE….. AND IF YOU HAVE FIND THAT LOVE
JUST KEEP IT, NEVER LET IT GO
AND WHENEVER YOU GOT A CHANCE
WHEN EVER JUST TELL YOUR LOVES ONE
THAT “HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM”
TELL THEM EVERY MINUTE THAT
“YOU LOVE THEM” THAT

“I ALWAYS LOVE YOU ALWAYS”

GIRL ASK BOY- HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE ME!?
BOY ANSWER- LOOK AT THE SKY AND COUNT ALL THE STARS.
GIRL REPLY- ITS DAY! ARE YOU CRAZY!
BOY- EXACTLY!! EVEN I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH DO I LOVE YOU!

after your first love,
You can love someone else.
But.....
Loving someone with
All of your heart...
Is different than
loving someone with
Broken pieces.....

I wait but you never come
I scream but you never hear
I cry but you hurt me more
I want to be still alive but
you make me feel dead.

I DON'T FEEL YOU LOVE ME ANYMORE.
I DON'T FEEL YOU LOVE ME.
I DON'T FEEL YOU LOVE.
I DON'T FEEL YOU.
I DON'T FEEL.
I DON'T.


*reverse it and read

She looks at me enchanting with her eyes,
Oblivious to how she stirs my heart.
The passion she creates is her surprise
As is the sorrow felt when she departs.

She laughs and I long to be by her side,
Each story makes me blush with puppy love,
Is she aware of how I feel inside?
She occupies each thought I’m thinking of.

To hear her voice transports to fantasy,
Where love could never be as real as this.
Without her love I can’t live happily,
When she’s away I dream about her kiss.

What I mean to her there’s no need to speak,
While I feel that together we’re unique.