I can't see the future so i wont pretend
It's close, the time for amends

Right now I'm full of pain
My attempts for love in complete vain

Don't know which way to turn
Is love something you earn?

Not sure if I'm wrong or right
My heart, it gets so tight

Don't know what to do
Love it's so confusing, who ever knew?

It's close and oh so powerful
The consuming knowledge is so wonderful

I know I'll soon have you,
The one who's right and true

Just a matter of time,
And then you'll be mine

You're everything I ever wanted
You're the reason my mind is so haunted

I was forced to grow
The pain i lived through, no one will ever know

The ground it was stained not only by tears,
But also by my blood and deepest fears

I know it'll soon come to an end,
On the blade I no longer depend

You're the one that will save me
So that it can be

It took ten years,
Filled with nothing but tears

So i could see the light,
Even through the darkness of night

See me smile and laugh,
Now I'm ready to love

I just have to wait,
I know you wont be late

Lost myself, fell from once mighty throne
Became a fragile glass boy
Yet I never gave up
Kept on fighting
Even if in the end I made mistakes

Always hidden, mysteries that held power
Lost it all as my castle crumbled
I became human
Yet I still fought this war
Belligerent as ever, I strove to win
Although I only ended losing almost all that I love

Always smirking, confidence on display
All faded away
As the truth arose
It was all fake, lies I made to stay strong,
Still cried when I accepted the truth
Still stood as tall as possible,
Awaiting the next challenge,
Even though I failed

Once feared and hated,
Others began to sympathize when they learn of my silver scars,
The weakness was on displayed
And I began to seek help
Let those in who loved me
Put each broken glass back together
Still cracked, but strong enough to stay together

Trusted you with my soul
You burned all my bridges
Gave you the key,
You wrecked every train of thought

Always had your voice raised
Bleeding ears that suffered insults

Let you in,
You flooded the ventricles, stopped the pulse
Surrendered to you,
You left your mark with crimson ribbons

Never gave a gentle touch,
The bruises you loved so much faded, not the scars

Began to fight for myself
You knocked down my ground
Tried getting back up
You broke my legs

Fear soon began to set in
The hunger for pain made you into a monster

Raised a hand to block the abuse
You snapped my strength with the cold blade
Finally screamed out into the dark for help
You shoved me off the cliff, into eternal sleep

Did nothing but see my love,
You now only see my broken body

A lost puppy, lost his home where he belongs
***** and unkempt, the pup hides in the shadows,
Looking for a matter that can show love

With an injured paw he searches for anything to quench his hunger
Finds none as night falls

Though the pup whimpers and cries, he goes back
Injured, hungry, and lost, he goes back to the monster he calls master

Even out in the rain with still no food nor warmth,
The pup remains loyal
For it's his love for his master that keep him alive

My mother should be an author
She carves her soul into millions of pieces
Leaving it behind all of the family photos
When I see my mother
I see a woman
Who wants to hide her soul in a needle
Just so the screaming can stop in her mind,
These bottles are rattling in the living room
You see they have put shackles on her heart,
She can't love anymore
Without having ***** in her water bottle.

Where is she hiding her beer?
I feel like my mother is giving me a scavenger hunt
From the shards of glass that were left on the baseball fields
My mother used to take me to.

You know she always wasn't like this
She was strong minded and had a big heart
Tonight I will tell you the story of a woman
Who lost her soul to the Keystones to the Miller Lites
To the ****** Mary’s.
Let's rewind time
See ******* the soul in ten years

10- I look into my mother's eyes and I start to cry
Because I'm looking at a woman who I don't know anymore

9- I refused to bail her out of jail again
Because I'm afraid her kidney will fail if she drinks again

8- My mother staggered into the theater and disrupted the whole play,
My cast mates turned to me and asked, isn't that your mother?

7- I had to hold my mothers hand
Because she was throwing up the cocktail of drugs and alcohol

6- Daddy had to get mom out of jail she was drinking again

5- My mother throws the bottle across the room
And told me the reason why she drinks is because I'm Autistic

4- My mother overslept for my piano recital,
I didn't think it was a big deal
But I remember she spent the whole night crying
With a wine glass in her hand.

3- Mommy I didn't know your prescription came in a needle

2- Mommy the prescription say 2 pills a day
why are you taking 6?

1- My mother went to the doctor
Found out that she has Rheumatoid Arthritis
I don't know what that means,
But I know she will still be strong right?

0- She took me to a Dodger game for my birthday.
I remember Sammy Sosa hitting a home run that game
She told me that the only person that can **** your soul is yourself