The Fate Date


I held the pizza box over our heads
As the rain poured down from the sky
We smiled and kissed
Was an opportunity missed?
Memories fade with the passing of time

We stepped over a puddle
Despite the fact that we were wet
Who thought something so trivial
Would ever lead to such regret

What may have happened
Or what should have been
Has been replayed over and over again in my head
I try to recall every word that was said
As I lay down for slumber
Alone in my empty bed

A connection that never had a chance to take flight
We were just two passing ships
On a dim moonless night

When our date had occurred
We were only nineteen
And a lifetime it seems
Has passed by in between

It was fate without question
That it was not meant to be
Was our meaningless lusting
Why God intervened

Like a scene from a movie
I can still visualize
Myself frozen in silence
Like a deer in headlights
As I watched her drive off
And right out of my life

There's been a long line of lovers
Attempting to lead me astray
But none made the cut
Not a one made the grade

I left the past well behind me
So that I could move on
But the thought of another
Felt as much right as did wrong

I often still wonder
What may have or not been
If the clouds had all scattered  
From a strong gust of wind

I can't quite remember
How it all came to end
From the magic of a first kiss  
To a now past distant friend

We were too young and naive
To be bound and restrained
With the whole world awaiting
To discover our names

I pray you're now happy,
Well-established, and set
I pray you've come to love another person you've met

I hope you're not searching
The heavens filled with regret
But sitting warm by the fire,
dry and not wet.

I remember the days when you were the girl
Who came into my life
Nearly ruined my world
Since then, nothing's been the same
Caught in the thunder and the  rain

I still remember a time
When I professed to you my love
But you went over the line
And you put up your gloves
You were not the one for me
It was clearly plain to see

I've moved on with my life
Made a new start
Gave to another, my beating heart
We long for each other
When we're apart
She's the woman of my dreams

I wish you the best, there's no animosity
It just came to a point where I had to break free
You were not the one for me
It was clearly plain to see

I will never forget you
You're a part of my past
We should have known then
That it never would last

So I have to profess
That it broke my heart
Seeing you out in the cold
All alone in the dark

I related to your pain
I thought it was a shame
I was your Adam, you were my Eve
Until you bit the fruit off the forbidden tree
You were not the one for me
It was clearly plain to see

This isn't my problem, I'm well aware
But it doesn't mean I haven't a care
You never were one to not put up a fight
I know in the end
That you'll be all right
This is just the way it needed to be
I've gone and found the right one for me

Lost in your smile
Lost in your smile
I want to get lost in your smile
Have that feeling I haven't felt in a while
See the twinkle that gleams in your eyes
Like the stars way up in the sky

Feel your hair tickle the nose on my face
As I hold you close; clenched, embraced
I want to whisper sweet lies in your ear
How we'll run off and just disappear

Hold your hands, together in mine
Forever, until the end of all time
I want to press my lips on your forehead, so dear
Make you feel like there's nothing to fear

Rest your head on my shoulder
As we grow older and older
Caught up in a spell to which there is no cure
And never knowing what life has in store

Love, reigns over any ill will
That's hidden, out of view or concealed
There's been nothing more powerful
Nothing so strong
That filled what was empty until you came along

Nothing ever so moving
Nothing more as intense
Could have pleased my dry palette
You've somehow managed to quench

Cupids Arrow


What's now come into fruition
Is my lacking inhibition
For the discovery of a suitor
Or a counterpart addition
So I've come to the decision
I no longer bare ambition
To seek out the one and only
That I so long had envisioned


The stars never seemed to be aligned
No exploding worlds collide
Hidden somewhere in the cirrus clouds
Cupids arrows passed me by
I've gazed adoringly into the eyes
Heard random strangers spewing lies
Caught the reflection of despondency
That could not be denied
Although with valid vindication
Of the conclusion I've surmised

So many days spent searching
Along the vanquished path
Thinking I would become whole
When united with my better half
What is meant to be will be
Accepting fate completely
If my dispersed love returned to me
I'd cease in roaming wild and free
With the possibility of forever
Yet, still destined for uncertainty

What We Say Or Do

The seeds have all been planted
The flowers fully bloomed
The vows have all been spoken
Between the bride and groom

Prayers sometimes go unanswered
Songs we hear sound out of tune
The stars twinkle their brightest
On the dark side of the moon

The earth still breathes beneath us
Despite all of it's impending doom
The grass may not always be greener
Through the fence where lovers lume

Happiness may be the goal
But the journeys' ours to choose
Some things are the way they are
No matter what we say or do

Hold on to what's important
With enough love to fill the room
Because loneliness is a disease
To which no one is immune

I'm a fumbler fumbling
A mumbler mumbling
A stumbler stumbling
Around women I like

I become catatonic
Somewhat neurotic
Completely dumbfounded
And I can't speak a word

The fear is too great
So I hesitate
The moments are lost
The longer I wait

I try to act cool
Despite all my drool
I end up a fool
As the hour grows late

I clam up and clamper
To avoid pure disaster
Lacking all candor
And I completely shut down

I'm stifled by fear
By all I hold dear
My words disappear
Just to be near you

My tongue goes numb
Too inept to overcome
The sheer terror inside me
As my heart beats like a drum

Progress a no go
From the chances I've blown
Withdrawn and alone
With painful undertones

Not a whisper or sound
No laughter just frowns
The challenge too great
Than should be allowed

Courage is fleeting
Despite the two of us meeting
I shy away
Just a scared human being

I foresee the outcome
You eventually leaving
Growing tired of my antics
I'm constantly repeating

So I stay within my comfort zone
Narrowly escaping
A connection with another
To keep my heart from breaking

Closed off from the world
That's cruel and unrelenting
One day I'll just disappear
And they'll be no more regretting

The what ifs and the woulda's
The could've and the shoulda's
The didn't and the don'ts
The wouldn't and the wont's

A coward in his shell
Living a living hell
Hidden between the shadows
In my own dungeon where I dwell

Too selfish to share my feelings
With another in my plight
I'm the guy with his eyes closed
Shielded from love at first sight