I am not the same
I was happy, alone but content
Waiting for something special
Then from no where
I found you and your little smile
Waiting for me to write
The fastest 3 months
I have been through
Was with you, in all my life
During that time I waited,
I found 'Someone Else'
Similar, yet better in hindsight
Still ... 3 more months I had to wait
6 months in total just to see her smile
And eventually we met
Something was right
Too much expectation
Not enough fight
This door closed abruptly
All of a sudden
My cousin was right
With this slamming door
To my damaged heart
A window opened
That 'Someone Else'
Reappeared
And showed me
What was right,
How to hold her hand
How to make it feel right
You then left me
Not your fault or mine
I missed you
The second your hand left mine
Sleep was hopeless
It couldn't escape my mind
3 months later
Which is this point in time
What a year it has been
A hurtful one which
Made me wait for 2 people
Who were never mine
What is this year going to throw at me ...