Hi, little bird,
     perched high on a wire,

Where are your friends,
     with whom you’d conspire?

I feel not-so-alone,
     as you watch me watch you,

And the hours that pass,
     make me believe that it's true:

He knows all our needs,
     when we look, He provides.

And His presence may be found,
     in a simple, winged disguise.

if you called me right now
would I even answer?
do i know better?

the thought of listening to your
sweet honey voice
makes my body tremble.
knees weak
heart beat
nauseous.

i don't.
i would answer.

i would hold my breath.
clench my jaw so tight.
knuckles white.
smile through the phone,
pretend that i'm alive


i'm just not strong
enough
to resist you
today
or
ever.

Oh,
the beauty,
of knowing You
are not so far away
and that You will never
walk away.
Oh,
the beauty,
of finding the love
You made for us.
Only in You, can we
learn to trust.
Oh,
the beauty,
of a broken heart
which you sew back
together.
Oh,
the beauty,
of knowing that Your kingdom
is forever.
Oh,
the beauty,
of our silent conversations,
written on a page,
or said in our minds,
with our eyes closed
late at night.
Oh,
the beauty,
of Heaven's open doors.
Oh,
the beauty,
of knowing that
I am Yours.

We live so close to one another
I sometimes have to wonder
Are we destined to always meet?
Are we always just going to greet each other as friends?
Smile and talk about the weather while both wondering
whether we were once one.
I know you, you know me
We joke, we smile, we share wit and banter
Yet, all the while I see you as me and me as you.
And as you I want me.

I felt the pain as you left
crawling up into my throat
trying to understand what drove you away
why am i not good enough?
what caused you to stop loving me?
i used to feel warmth when i looked at photos of you
now all i feel is my chest aching with pain
and i don’t know how to make it stop
but i wish it would leave
just as easy as you did me