The world spins on
As the whispers fill the expanding air.
The guiding light
The master of death
The pain and danger too bright to deny.
Again and again churning and swirling
Only to be broken by love.

A moment of pain
Turned into a moment of bliss.
Time stopped
And our eyes met
Drawing closer and closer until space did not exist anymore.
Butterflies fluttered within me
Then it seemed as if the missing puzzle piece was found at last.
Soft lips tasting of bitter alcohol and mint brushed over mine.
Hesitant but determined.
With increased intensity you swooped me off my feet and a calm embraced me.

You made me see who I am
I was pushed to be honest
Pushed to be free
Pushed to be daring.
I let loose and fell in love with the me I had become.
There I was with you by my side and the world didn't seem so big.
The chains that once locked me down were released and I could be me.
I was so comfortable
And warm.
As if my heart had started a fire for all to live by.

I miss my best friend. I miss being able to talk about anything and everything. It was what I lived for. I leaned too far though. I depended on you to cheer me up and lie and that was wrong of me. I am so sorry. I am sorry you have not had an easy life and you feel so alone sometimes yet I'm even more sorry that you still feel the need to lie and put others down because you're so insecure about the great unbearable truth being revealed. We have gone our separate ways and nothing can be the same as it ever was. Nor do I want or need that. I do not need you. I do not need lies to give me confidence. I have me and that's just fine. I have done great without you. I cannot tell you any of this though because it does not matter. You never truly did. You ruined me