Noise
It surrounds me
buzzing
infuriating
unrecognizable to the ear

a radio signal
one can never tune to
I try the controls,
but the wires bellow catch my wrists
they twist,
and twist
into tiny knots that cover me

i'm trapped in a hell of my making
without a voice
no one helps me
they all see me
but no one speaks for me
then you called my *name

You convinced me that only lies flow from your lips
So I stayed my distance
Always hoping to run right back to you,
Once my bruises healed
But always knowing
Blood would also be at the surface of those cuts

You are nothing but a lampshade,
Protecting the hot light that burns inside of me
That would shine brighter if not for you

Believing your lies was expensive,
But no more than staying
And I pay the price each lonely morning

The night you said you'll be okay, you'll be fine,
That's when I felt something's wrong and it was a sign,
You said you'll not cry and it'll take time,
But your world's drifting from mine,

What's good in the morning?
When we both know you're not returning,
I stared at the door hoping to hear a knock,
But then the sun starts to set and I knew you're not coming back.

My room felt so lonely,
These sheets have become my remedy,
Every time I lay in bed,
They're whispering and telling me all the words you've said.

I'm tired of crying every now and then,
I'm scared of asking for a paper and a pen,
You might not give the things I need,
Ignore me like an annoying kid.

But please don't add yourself in my past stories,
Because i'm holding on to us and to our memories,
All I ask from you is be here,
Stay with me because I can't control my anxiety and fear.

Losing you wasn't in my list,
But it seems like you had chosen like it was already a goodbye kiss.