valentines is sad
s-singles
a-awareness
d-day
but why constantly
be sad
when there are others
dying for your attention
**** i lost my writing mojo

im watching you
slowly have a harder time
to take deep breaths

please just fight for me
I need you
to do this for me

it's been weeks since
I've seen you
and its making me weak

please just don't die on me

numbers are rising and lowering
im watching my life slip away
anxiety building up
so high where there is no way
to get down
and I am scared to come back down
my blood pressure
is sky high
and my oxygen level
is ground low
im ******* dying
and you don't even know.
-H.M.

finally, you're not the only one
that has to put me in pain.
because honestly
everytime I breathe
it feels like a knife in the veins

does this mean this is
"the end"
is my story on its last page
because I still wouldn't change

im so tired
im mentally drained
and I can't feel anything
im so ******* numb

goodnight
-H.M.

the blue in the sky
every single time
it has to remind me of your eyes
and it triggers off
everytime you said goodbye
and you only said bye
because I could not handle the lies
that you feeding my mind.
and now
im just stuck here with why

now I hide in the lies
that you planted on me
in such a beautiful way
I fell in love
with each seed that
you may lay

now I'm a beautiful garden
with no one to take care of
any of the flowers
that have bloomed
into something bigger
so each lie you said
may not be as beautiful
because they are dead
but they still stay.