The pen
I hold
in my hand
weaves its web
of magic
round
my fingers
little electric shocks
that flow on paper
enchanted currents
that paint
the artist
in the world
as a dreamer
in a dream

just a few more words
get them out on paper
they need to come out
like blood on a razor

it makes me feel whole
it makes me feel clean

though I am neither
somewhere in between

just a few more words
until I feel better
maybe this time
it will last a bit longer
or maybe I'll write til my fingers bleed

Diamond rings
bring broken dreams
I hear the rain
and feel its sting
I play ignore and endure
until I can't take any more
no one will keep me chained
and I'm not scared of anything

Damaged pearls
fill this world
why must they change?
Rub out their flaws
but I still feel their scars
put them on fancy strings
and I'm not scared of anything

I don't need jewelry or make-up
to play cover-up
I don't need a man to tell me
I'm good enough
I don't need a king to rule
I'm the ******* Queen
and I'm not scared of anything

time wasted
a fool no longer
dreams hastened
sparks catch
and feed the fire

No more shadows on my back
No more spinning wheels
No more constant attack
I want a heart that can feel

Wars waged
a slave no longer
hope made
there is more to life than desire

No more shadows on my back
No more spinning wheels
No more constant attack
I want a heart that can feel

Beats broken
this glue works no longer
courage spoken
I will become stronger

No more shadows on my back
No more spinning wheels
No more constant attack
I want a heart that can feel

I wish I wasn't like you
spineless and broken
trying to pull through
angry at your slightest move
silenced and removed
I wish I wasn't like you
wearing a happy mask
being ruled by the past
and never forgetting who I am
all I feel is
permanent red
I wish I wasn't like you

Waves waving
in discretion
You're amethyst
in a doll's dress
glitter glittering
sliding with
the pendulum
Feet march
to tread to
the lockdown of me
they said
put her to rest
but that wouldn't
be enough
the waves are
still waving
stick the stick
to this
wedding cake fix
layer lay me
down in strips
sub sunset
on a color wheel
glitter glittering
like sand
touching
the waves waving
in discretion
and this is
stronger than
my will
this is the lockdown of me
they said
put her to rest
but that wouldn't
be enough

You invaded me
like a secret army
flipping switches
I didn't know existed
the battle was won
with all the lights on
a fluorescent surrender
to the commander
love foe
you ignored the show
vividly dimmed
you let me go
when I was eager
to become
your prisoner
call back your spies
transmitting heartbeats
of lies
they've built a blockade
around my heart
these soldiers still marching
make them depart
a remorse code
with no answer
quiet noise
against the fire
of the bombs still burning
your armies retreated
and not returning
I'm a nuclear wasteland
a sad spectacle show
while you've moved on
ready to conquer
another foe