I just wanna lay next to you
Hold you in my arms
Bury my face in your body
And cry.
Cry myself to sleep.
I don't know how we got here
Or where we're going
But I just want to stay next to you forever
In the warmth of your embrace
Where it's safe.
No one else's arms will do
Because I don't like them
I love you.

I don't want to close my eyes
Because I'll fall asleep.
If I fall asleep I'll dream.
And if I dream I know I'll dream of you.

We hurt each other
Like no one ever has.
To say we care
There's no reason
It'll only pass.

All we do is use each other
So that we do not feel so alone.
We can lie and call it love.
But we would only be hurting each other more
And it's already too rough.

We yell
We fight
We pull punches
Sometimes all night.
At the best of times
It hardly seems worth it
But it's better then the truth:
We can never quit.

I think in some sick sense
What we have can be considered real.
Real sick
And That was never apart of the deal.

I need more friends
I need more of a life
I need to be less of a loser
I'm trying to be here
I'm trying to be there
He's always there
He's always here
I need less of him
And more of me

All those nights we spent together
Gone
All those things you'd whisper in my ear
All but a memory
All the Times you Told me I was yours
Gone
And every time I told you I loved you
Are really just gone

You found someone New
Shiny and bright.
Something of a memory
But it fills me with fright
Because now I have to do the same
And I feel like I can't

I feel empty and dead inside
Because I lost you.
And I'll never get you back now...

Please come back to me...

My life is alot different now
Without you
I can go weeks and months
Without even thinking of you
And when I do
It's all pain
The horrible truth of what you did
Pain all the same
And even that
Is getting less and less
Because I have someone new
And because I'm better without you.
I never needed you
To be happy
I never needed you
To love my self
Of course there's plenty of blame
To go around
But I'm not the one that cheated
I'm not the one that didn't care
One day I'll wake up
With my Love's arms around me
And you'll be nothing
But a painful memory.
A time where I
Naive and gullible
Thought you loved me
Thought you cared
But I was just ensnared.
A prisoner to your whim
A slave to your needs
You got what you wanted
And I got to leave.

But now my boo
He holds my heart
He always makes me laugh
And says sorry when he farts
He loves to cuddle
And he loves to kiss
Being with him
Has been such bliss.
He listens to me
And helps me fix my problems
It's always an adventure with him
And no one can top him.

In a way
I'm glad you happened
I'm glad you came into my life
And I'm glad you left it
You helped me see
What a relationship shouldn't be
And my only regret
Is that it took me so long to realize it.
You couldn't have been
A more perfect teacher
And this is the last I'm writing about you
Because you aren't worth my time
Not worth my words
And not worth my energy.

I remember the first time I saw us together...
Physically saw us together.
It was in your bathroom mirror the first time I went to your house.
I was wearing your shirt
And you were wearing mine.
And I thought we looked like the biggest mix match couple ever.
Like people would wonder how we got together.
2 years later and I love every single picture
Of us together.
Every single time it makes me so happy.
Just looking at the pictures of us.
Remebering how in love with you I am.
Knowing how far we've come.
Its so beautiful.
We are the most adorable couple.
We try the hardest.
Not only are we making things work
We're loving each other while doing it.
I wouldn't want to make it work with anyone else but you.
Because I'm so in love
With you yelling "wake up it's morning"
And you saying hellooooo when you call me and it eventually escalating to "haaarrrooo"
I'm so in love with the smiles you keep adorned on my face in your presence
The laughs that flow out of me when I'm with you
When your a complete and utter dork and all I can think about when I look at you
Is how lucky I am
How in love with you I am
And how I could never be with anyone else.

Don't you know
You were my sun
In a dark universe
You were the light
On a cloudy day
You were my sight
When I was blind to see
Why couldn't I see
You were always
the best part of me
and though your away
In my heart you'll always stay
And when I fail to see
I hope the day will come
When you will come back to me.

Because even when it's a million degree outside,
I'll still be wearing your sweater you gave to me.
Because even on a happy day,
I cry myself to sleep because you weren't apart of it.
Because even when I'm talking to people all day,
If they aren't you, I'm not happy.
Because I'm in love with you...

I could write
A whole ******* book
About how I feel
When you look at me

The want
The love
The utter admiration
It's just like something
Out of a story.

Our story.
Our beautiful little story
Of how we went from strangers
To flirting
To this beautiful relationship I call home.

I never get tired of hearing it.
I never get tired of being in it.
Because you're everything.
You're my laughter on the ******* of days
My comfort when the sky is turned to gray
My warm embrace and shelter from the rest of the world.
All the jokes, and smiles, and cuddles and kisses and beautiful words... all a great reminder that you are my home.

And when things are hard
I know they'll get better.
Because we communicate.
Because you talk to me.
Because above all else you want to be with me just as much as I want to be with you.
Because I love you
And you love me.

Sometimes I feel like this isn't real
Because it's too good to be true.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough
Because you're so great.
Sometimes I feel like I'll wake up and you will have been a dream.
A beautiful beautiful dream.

But you're my dream.
And even if I wake up tomorrow
And it was all in my head
At least I'll always know
That maybe you're out there
Somewhere
Waiting for me
As I have been dreaming of you.

Because you're my home.
And you're my boo.
And I don't want to be
With anyone else
But you.

I close my eyes
because when i do
I don't feel so alone

because darkness
is more company
than you'll ever know

I could never tell you
of the utter anomalies
running through my heart.

I shouldn't be alive.