basil

basil Oct 2020

ashtray

whose voice will you read my poems in
after my bones have long been lying in my own second hand smoke

will you be able to remember how my youth sounded
by the time you read them again

i should apologize to my lungs, but it's you that i will always say sorry to

#******

basil Oct 2020

cologne

i don't want to smell like the flowers in the lotion you gave me
i want to smell like i could break my own bones

basil Oct 2020

remind(er)

i'll always need constant reminders
because i feel like i am one

i need you to remind me that the world is beautiful
because i feel like a reminder of all the oil spills

i need you to remind me that love is kind
because i feel like a reminder of every time i broke my own heart

i need you to remind me that i'm human
because i feel like a reminder that monsters do exist

and mostly, i need you to remind me that you love me
because i feel like a reminder of all the reasons you shouldn't

i'll always need constant reminders
because i feel like i am one

remind me, blue eyes

basil Oct 2020

childhood

i wish i knew how to manipulate time
the way you manipulated me

basil Oct 2020

minuet in g

i beg my lungs not to let go
as they hold in the million scents that make up
you

i wish your smell was like muscle memory
always coming back to the tips of my fingers

like those songs i still know how to play on the violin

that movie wasn't long enough, blue eyes.

#finger #callouses

Sep 2020

stargazer

p.s

i still wish you never showed me that song
because something so beautiful
shouldn't hurt me so much

06.23.2020

#broken #heart

basil Sep 2020

dreams get in the way

i'm no poet, no artist
maybe that's why i can see
we're a lot more beautiful
when you're just you, and i'm just me

i like who you are much more than who i made you out to be. but you'll always be my blue eyes <3

#ex #dreamer